I wished And wished..

Bored

2009-03-06T02:30:00.000-08:00

okay. I know, my blog is dead
But I seriously have no time
Homeworks, projects, SYF training.
*yawn* Very tired. Can homeworks stop for once?

Whats been happening? hmm. alot?
I've been going to and fro to the hosp. It isnt nice.
projects...*shake heads* tsk
HOMEWORKS? *SHAKESHAKE*
hahahah!
I'll just tell you what I've been going through past months

January- Totally 4gt what happen. uhhh....what ah?
February-
Hmm.. I realise that during february, we have valentine, people's birthday.
wah. I would call it Moneruary. Oh well Recession hits me too.
Mrch-
Adventure camp (Im not attending)
Yup, sobsob. Three days. wth am I going to do?
Watch re-runs. Talk to birds. sleep.
BORING BORING! )):
Yup.

This year like no time for alot of things.
No time to go out because I would rather spend it to catch up on my sleep.
No time for relationships. Hahah =.=" If I had one, I would be talking about homeworks non-stop it'll bore him. Not interested, ask me when I graduate okay?
No time for computer msn. Futhrmre many not online.....

I wanna go back to lower sec days.
I know! Im complaining right?
Argh! Get use to sec 3 hamizah! Go go!
Time move so fast yeah? even recess, the queue is mega long and the tables are like limited.
Im not going to blog for a very long time.
So if you people want to read my blog, press archives.
Read about my lower sec days, my regrets, my achievements, my boredom.

Hah. Im thankful enough there are friends by my side.
Im thankful enough I'm still alive.

Thats all(: take care!

hello

2009-01-24T03:34:00.000-08:00

okay. I know I haven't been blogging.
Have no time. CCA, homeworks. Don't see a point why I should online when I have tons of homework.
Haiz. School has been boring.
But I got people in class to make me smile, like ching yen, junting vitoria.
mhm. still cannot upload photos. Very dumb.
CNY? I'll be sitting at home. Apparently we can't get chalet, and all th family went to Kota Kinabalu? yeah. Dad's working. ):
Ytd cny concert was okay, but to me it ended so fast.
And yesterday night was bad for me. ):
I was too tired and I slept, totaly forgotten about it.
Im really really sorry. ): I know you stayed up but never got a reply back.
argh. stupid me.

Happy cny(:

ccj

2009-01-12T06:38:00.000-08:00

busybusybusy.
I wont be blogging alot. Maybe sometimes on weekends, depends.
anyway, school really sucks. ):
espiecally the HOMEWORKS!

Nyohio, Please do

new year

2009-01-07T04:40:00.000-08:00

Havent update longlong.
school is boring & frustrating & lonely ):
Even though there are jokes, but alot of them I don't understand.
Lets just say I like recess. :C
Malay class? I sit far back...with the boys in my class =.=
geog class? Noisynoisy! everyone sit anywhere...I only know victoria...
argh. at class, I got victoria infront, ching yen beside(right),kalinda behind.
Physics is boring. F&N is okay la....I saw some of the practical. woah. hhahahha!
But good thing, we get to choose our cooking partner! (victoria for me of corse!)
But they are people changing to D&T like hakim. and the art students have 3 hours of sitting there, doing nothing.
anyway, nowadays, everyone bad mood.

Nope, im fine at school. No problem there for me.
But at home. again it happens. Im so angry. I don't know, but I'm also sad!
Just because of you, and everyone gets it. frustrating!
Now everything is quiet. Dad keeps being bad mood of this, drag all of us down.
argh, think about us la please? just stop it. Now we just wait.

anyway, its a new year. I have not time to go online.
homeworks, and Im tired. recess seems soso long....and the queue too! No table somemore!
One more year....okay maybe lesser...
nd its 2010.

*rushrushrush*

Now we're walking at the same path with the same pace.

Back In spore

2008-12-28T07:47:00.000-08:00

Im back. & hell yeah, I LOVELOVE to be back.
I can admit, I love it here.
Anyway, guess what?

I SAW LISA IN KL! :DDDDD
Haha. Cool!

Anyway it is tiring. I just came back.
I'll blog about my trip, if I can get the pictures from Harlin & kyqin.
But okay...I love the teksi exclusive the hotel gave.
I hate the traffic there. I always had to hold an adult hand.
I even had to hold Hafiz'z hand! Because damm. Im scared of the umm...man there.
One white car almost banged into us all. It cant wait!
Cannot see we got two grandparents ah?!
Anyway freaky things did happen. Will blog about that.

So I hope to online soon. Cause' now, Im just veryveryveryvery tired. hours&hours in the car.

Btw,

Four more days!
(Excited to see friends ; stupid because its a friday! ; sad because holiday over)

YES!

2008-12-23T09:00:00.000-08:00

YAY! I FINISH THE EIGHT SETS OF RESEARCH FOR ENGLISH!

FINALLY! WOOOHOOO!

Tommorow:
Pack, Maths, Science, SS.

& thrusday, Off I go.

Merry christmas guys!(:

And phew. Since today is the last day I'll be using computer before I go, Im lucky that suddenly at 12 midnight plus, KH online because couldnt sleep. I get to chat before I go! :D

Wait just to add on:
I will miss EVERYONE!
But espiecally, My dear...Birds(:
ahha. Cannot upload their pictures...): stupid blogger.

Tommorow

2008-12-22T07:23:00.000-08:00

Today I bought uniforms. *yawn*
Tommorow, damm...PACKPACK!

Super busy tommorow le...

-Take out money(see laa....)
-PACKPACK!
-Finish up as much homework as I can!
-PACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

Stupid. thats the thing I hate about going for holidays.
Packing! And Im on the road at 3am! Imagine that! Tired le. Might as well dun bathe at all.
Anyway today my dad treat us dinner. Im happy to see him eat alot(:

Anyway, I bought some of the TSGS books. (I know. Lame right?)
And as I'm reading it, I suddenly decided to think.
Am I really lucky to have this ability to see?
My cousin recently forbid me to wear the bangle with bells.
why?
"It will attract the Kak pon!(understand laaa)"
Maybe that explains why I can see her flying last few nights.
I always close my eyes. I always wonder. Why am I the one to see? Has grandma sight become mine to see? My sister used to see, But she said she can't anymore.
Then I remembered, I have been seeing it since young, so will it stay on with me?
They said it's lucky to see. But the sight can be too frightening, sometimes I wish I can just close my eye.
Or maybe it has something to do with the kris at home? My mother told me, It was from my great-great grandfather. He used to fight people with it. There was still blood on the kris, But she has washed it away I guess. It doesn't really scares me, but soemtimes I wonder,
If I grow up, am I the one to carry on the generation and hold on to the 3 kris?
Maybe I want to.
Sometimes I'm scared. But I can't see it in the bright daylight. Are we suppose to?
It seems disturbing, but I can hear knocks on my window, my door, sounds of things being dropped sometimes. Not everyday!
Who knows? Maybe i'll continue to see. But I think I'll rather believe in God. I believe they exists. They are a creation of God, just like me.

Anyway thats all. I hope to post my last tommorow night(:
Before Im gone. And I also hope KH is online before I go.

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-21T05:48:00.000-08:00

Sheesh. Lead not loading....upgrading it... :/
Anyway I'm still alive...
Only I got throat inflammation & I couldnt breathe.
Missed 4 drama practice. ):

Anyway, I haven't finish my homework.
Haiya. But my tuition teacher is making me do all tommorow.
Disaster.

This thrusday, Im offf!
So an early merry christmas to you all yeah?
Just now went my cousin's house. She moved to chua cu kang, and their LRT station, though the lifts are quite far to me, are much bigger than punggol and sengkang ones.
But very ulu le to me...

and THEY were there. Super cute(: hehhehe. and they talked to me!
But I stayed in the kitchen. Malu....too many boys outside. :D

Ytd, I went to watch the snow white musical.
Hahha It was funny! and niceeee!
It was horny too!
Here is one part:

The prince charming and princess at the zoo, then the princess says she likes the petting alot.
So the prince asks, "oh really? Heavy or light?" Okay if you can get it, good.
Futhermore, I sat infront of miss cheng, mr wu & mr firman.
They laugh laugh. Me & anu also laugh. hahah.

Thats all. I havent packed.
Happy....umm holidays?

Scratched!

2008-12-13T08:49:00.000-08:00

Going to sleep soon....so tired...
Just now watched Jiogoku shoujo season 3 and played bomb it 2..which I won,
But sadly, I was scratched by my sister's nails for beating her. =.="

Very tired...
& the birds seem noisy tonight.
Did I tell you? Yesterday evening, RB flew out of the window
into the bushes at the garden!
Yes! & he was damn noisy! Luckily my sister took a bottle (which was meant to keep cookies) and put him in it. She said that at the lift, this man was looking at her strangely like as though she was mad.
Oh well, he's safe, and in love with deedee :D

Thats all! This monday-thrusday, CCA.

Oh yay!

2008-12-10T23:28:00.000-08:00

So I have 13 more days before Im off!
PS: about my previous post on the landslides,
My mum told me the landslide occur only at the Bukit Antarabangsa,KL.
Since I don't think I'll be passing pass there, there won't be a problem. As far as I know, the hotel I'm going to doesnt really have land all over it. Its mostly the buildings, with KLCC in sight. (ps: I also read of the accidents that has been happening due to the rain. *prays*)

I havent packed yet. I havent done my homework yet!
Sheesh!!! How?!
13 days is not long! WAAAA! ):
Even my dad said that having homework during holidays is stupid.
SEEE! I don't seee my cousins having homework! ):

gosh. Why cant I be rich and hire someone to do my homework like the americans in TV shows do..
Even though I know, its no good. And I don't think its possible!

Anyway playing pool again with sakina now. Going to do english homework first.

Ps: I've got tuition now! every mon-thurs! $50 per month
Guess by who?
.
.
.
My sister!! Yes! 1 & 1/2 hours!
Mon-Eng
Tues-Maths
wed-Eng
Thurs-Geography

Friday off day :D

Im lucky Im going overseas soon, so I can save one week of tuition. But heck, she gets paid by my mother! And my mother checks what I do every tuition time! ):
& she's getting me all this nutrient drinks. I have 3 to drink everyday! THREE!

Haiz. So thats what I have been doing for this holiday.
Boring right? :( Would love to read all of your blogs about your holiday.
But ashikin havent been updating. Update soon!
Anyway, 2009 coming soon.
F&N Here I come :D (I read the book yesterday and it looks interesting. Plus there's recipe! Lets' hope I can cook them soon)

Rain rain go away, come again another day...

Countdown(:

2008-12-06T00:50:00.000-08:00

so Im still confused over my holiday assignment.
But JH explained abit. Can understand laaa.

So...

19 more days before im off!
and still no homework done. (hehhe)

Anyway, I've been reading the news.
Landslides all over malaysia.
And since Im going there for Christmas...
TOUCH WOOD!
I know I'm over-reacting!
But you can never be too sure.

So right now, Im playing online pool with Sakina.
Ps: this monday is Hari raya haji!

World aids day

2008-12-01T04:16:00.000-08:00

Hello(:

Ok last sunday I was so touched. Thank you to Lisa, Ashikin and Angelina very very much.
They got a chocolate cake for me, which even though left abit, I left it at KFC. =.="
Sorry! xD
Then angel had to went off ):
So we went to buy some of Lisa's stuff
(Ps: I pray for your safety in Genting! Gd luck! :D)
Then went her house. Watched movie, then Ashikin played com.
I played with the scooter :D

So went home, and went to my cousin's house.
She got an excellent room.
So we stayed over. But I wasnt used to sleeping there.

Today, cooked this tomyam soup with her.
Not that successful. ;x

haha. Anyway, Since today is the 1st of december, this means....

I HAVE 24 MORE DAYS TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK!!

Which I have not touched at all :D
*cheers*
Omagawdddd. I don't intend to finish my homework.
Most of your would be asking, why 24?
Because Im offf from Christmas all the way to 30th december. I think ;x
):
So we have ...
Maths homework (nopeee...not yet touched)
History homework( printed it out, but only one sentence did)
English homework(HOW DO YOU DO THIS HOMEWORK?)

Ok I know. Im lazy. =.=" And I need to lose 6 kg in 1 month. You think can?

Buying books this friday.
Ps, I got the SAME subject combination as Syuhaida.
Well she got D&T but she had to change to F&N to take AMATHS.
Sis going orphanage at the 4th till Sunday. Yay. One room to myself :D

Thats all! (PS: Thank you to all the 18 people who wish me happy birthday(: )

BIRTHDAY!

2008-11-28T08:06:00.000-08:00

YES

I AM FOURTEEN!

Anyway today went to eat dinner
Lets put it that I was the one who suggested it,
And something spoils the whole ambience.

Oh well.
Anyway plans for tommorow,

Go buy my hari raya haji clothes. =.="

go on, laugh!
Mum forced me. On my birthday!
Well, so this outing to eat wth family(exclude my brother please) is considered the 2nd outing to eat dinner during my whole 14 years of my life.
boohoo. :/
I envy people with family that comes up with birthday cakes and presents.
& by envying them, I did get some nagging from my mother. =.="

anyway, thank you to all those who wish me!
My hp is 24 hours open! :D

ARGH RESULTS

2008-11-23T23:00:00.000-08:00

Yes, I know. I HAVEN'T been updating.
Duh, I never touch the computer for awhile, due to sis exams.
Alot of things has happen since I last updated, But I guess if I post it again, It'll be old news and you might have already read it in other blogs.

So lets move on,
TODAY WAS RESULTS DAY!
Me & angelina went early.
But it wasnt out until 10.
So went to cp, returned my books while CP was in darkness,
walked back to school. STILL NO RESULT!
So talked to the bookshop auntie. I just wanted to know if the books came.
Seems like I'm oredering from popular!
Anyway once the results were out, kiasu-ness came.

Result:
I GOT INTO 3G

I got f&n together with geography. But I realise something
I was the ONLY malay girl in class. & there's only THREE 2I students in that class.
Oh well. Not everyone is taking F&N right?
But the malay boys in my class are. (Are they great cooks?)
& I cried. I was kinda expecting something else, even though I wanted F&N.
I called mum. Luckily hongwei, zixian, angelina, abit of jon, zarinar came to comfort me.
Anyway, after that went home. Angelina gave an early bdae gift(:
IT WAS PRETTY! THANK YOU! ;D
Anyway here I am. No food at home. haiz!

Goshgosh!

2008-10-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

Haish! )):
My head is seriously spinning alot!
Think about the stupid thing.
GRR!
Feel like ranting it out to someone.
Many many fcuk.
Mood is VERY bad nowadays. Espiecally at home. ):
Ah fcuk this!
I want it settled!
I want him not to go!
BOTH OF THEM!
I don't want to be alone!
& I will obviously say NO!
Shit this thing la. ):

If I had a chance, I'll wish that I could stop all of it ):

Ps: Ty gfs for coming over for lunch(: Ily<3

Selamat Hari Raya the 4th!

2008-10-04T07:56:00.000-07:00

This hari raya made me realise ALOT of dark secrets that had been hidden in the family.

That explains _______________________. Nvm. I won't say.

Kindda make me shock la.

Anyway today people came and yah. I had another shock of my life. ;xxx

EEW MAN!

I still havent got alot of raya money. ):

Coz dad and mum working. I got exam. ah about dad...HAIXXX!

Alot of sad things la.

Ok la. Thats all. Have fun! 3 more papers. & Im kind!

You guys can laugh at my ugly face together with my ugly hari raya clothes(:

Selamat Hari Raya!

(Ps: I know its ugly, don't need to say. ;x)

Hari raya(:

2008-09-29T22:31:00.000-07:00

Okay Im back.
It seems like it was just ytd that we fast, and suddenly, tommorow is Hari Raya.
Ytd, my mum switched on the lampulaplip, and the other block new neighbour also did the same. hahahaah! xD'

Anyway, this hari raya is very.... =.="
Exams. Duhh.
Tonight, I will hear the takbir raya.
I always cry when I hear it.
I just remember all the sweet memories during fasting.
& its just so sad that the ramadhan is ending.
Then, occasionally, I would go play with the sparklers. Haha!
Get ready for tommorow, and ta-da. Have a good night sleep.
The next day, ask for forgiveness.
Being youngest, I have to be last. -.-
Then we make our way to grandma's house to have the delicacies prepared.
YUMYUM!

Some delicacies:
Tomato rice, Chicken in gravy(ayam masak merah), sambal goreng pengantin, ketupat, lontong.

Okay and many more. xD

I have to ask for forgiveness from this people.

In alphabetical order:

Adila:
Darling, this year has been fun with you. We may not be in the same class this year, but you will always be in my heart. I will always pray for the best in life for you and your family. Forgive me Adila, I ahve done many sins to you. Sometimes we see each other less than a day, espically on mondays, when I end late and you go home. I miss your company but hey, when you're in my heart, it fills me loneliness already. Forgive me okay? I miss you & I love you alot. Thank you for being there.

Angelina:
Hey darling! You have been always there for me through up and down, never failing to cheer me up. You keep me company without turning down my offer. You lend me a listening ear and agree on everything. telepathy! xD I love you alot. This Hari Raya, I just want to say forgive me fro all the sins I have done to you. I love you alot

Ashikin:
Hey babe. I have many sins to you thsi year. I really mean my forgiveness this time. You have never failed to lend me a listening ear and I appreciate that. I am really sorry for hurting your feelings with my words. I pray for your happiness. Forgive me Ashikin, I have done alot of sins to you. It comes from the heart. Forgive me okay? I miss you & I love you alot

Fazlin:
Hey! Gosh, I finally know more about you this year and I thank god for that. Sitting beside you in class ahs been a blast! Never did you fail to cheer me up or help me when im down. I have to thank you for all that you have done for me. I have done alot of sins to you & i'll put my ten fingers to ask for your forgiveness. You know I love you alot.

Sakina:
Heyhey babe! Haha! You NEVER fail to make me laugh with your lame jokes. Neitehr did you fail to keep me company in drama. Like a magnet neevr seperated. You were also there to hug me, remember? Haha. But hey, I have done alot of sins to you and I wish to ask for your forgiveness. I miss you & I love you.

Redza:
Hey. I have to ask you for forgiveness alot. It was nice memories last year. I have always hurt your feelings, make your heart painful, made you cry. The guiltyness stuck onto me. As one year passed, I know your a great guy. Someday you'll find someone better. But for thsi hari raya, I'll take out all my tenfingers to ask you for your forgiveness for the manymanymany sins I have done to you. Tysm yea? I will pray for your happiness and luck in the future. Take care alarmcock! Selamat hari raya!

And to:
Okay. Random names;
SingYee,Belinda,Karen,Liyen,amirah,lisa,farah,boys,my dnt group, MARINI & FIDI DARLINGS, & many other more if I missed out your name,

Do forgive me if I ahve hurt your feelings in this whole year. Forgive me yeah?

Everyone Is loved!

& to all muslims out there,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! :D

Back again(:

2008-09-27T08:06:00.000-07:00

Im back!
Im pretty much prepared for hari raya.
Hahah. Not for exams. sheesh.
I have to thank Belinda & angelina & some other people for making me go home on friday.
Felt super sick.
Today maths cube was fun.
Then shopped awhile, but mum wanted me to go home.
Well, actually she was crying la when I reached home.
I will not tell you all why. ):
Anyway, I went out, bought myself a shoe, and also make-up :D
Done done! :D *ticks checklist*
so now EOY. Hmmhmm. ):
Stilll not prepared. Goshgosh ): science is the one Im super scared ):
Anyway, all the best to everyone!

& I will reply and relink all of you lovely on my tagboard :D

Cinderella - Vanessa Morgan
You can just hear it. I was just randomly picking it.
Enjoy it while Im gone(:

Actually wanted to put hari raya songs,
but heck. What are radios for then? hahah!
Okay guys! Byebye! :D

& Ty for temaning me(:

(((:

2008-09-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

Paper 1 was okay la. But was seriously blanked out.
I wrote slowly. got so much time. xD I wasted freaking alot of paper ;D
K.

I promise, I will post on the night of raya!
Life Is okay now. Don't worry people
Still loving the people I love,
Btw, Like, had our last art and dnt lesson.
)):
Next year, we not gonna step inside that classroom anymore ):
& I will miss 2i )):

k. Paper 2 for lang arts & malay,

then HARI RAYA ;D

I won't neglect my science.
goshgosh. The time move very very fast.
I see many many people growing up.
Haha.

Current status:
Sitting beside Eugene Crazy ass
Got splashed by Jon
I am studying!
Been going home early with angel darl
Okay(: thats all.

Wish me luck.

Still sick like hell

2008-09-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

sheesh. being sick nearing exam, painnnn. ):
I had to leave early on Friday because I almost fainted on the stairs and my temp shot up.
Then sat was dnt.
no rest for me!
waited for JH vry long =.="
Then we did our video, now left with script.
Sun;
wanted to meet faz at my house, but she sick, I sick.
Then went with mum to hougang for her feather duster. -.-"
I went home because I couldnt take it.
mmhmm. My lungs hurt alot. ):
Tommorow, I should be cming to school.
But my mum cnt take me home liao. she cnt take halfdae okay! ))):

Nvm, dad is at home, painting the house. He can take me home.
This week Im busy cleaning my house. Oh well.
THis year will be white? EEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW ))))))))))):

& sad news.
They all changed their mind abt the maid )))))))))))))):
They decided to get the service maid, you know, the one that comes twice a week to clean the house for a few hours?
)))))))))))))))))):
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA))):

Hmm
15 more days to raya
9 more days to Exam

mhmm. Stop being shocked.

hmmmmhm

2008-09-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

Today was painful I admit. ):
Very very very painful ):
First I woke up late with a major headache.
The my mum had to take half day thanks to major fever.
It was 38.9 ! :O
Then my lungs started to hurt again. My mum had to drag me up to the doctor.
I had a flu, fever, cough, and lungs thingy.
He pressed my lungs. freaking pain)))):
Then idk what he said to my mum. But yah. Took medicine and home.
At home, my sis came back.
Then I was just about to walk to the toilet when I fainted.
I felt super giddy ;x
Luckily I woke up quick. My mum panic like hell.
Now Im quite okay. But Im freaking in pain & cold.
I hope I can go school tommorow.
Good luck if I faint.

'x

2008-09-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

I havent been posting alot;
But the days have been okay.
Yup. mmhm. yeah.
Today was tiring? art presentation very =.=
laughed during malay class. 1h of slacking.
Geog, Im pleased with my results. 20/25 :D
I didnt even study. ;x
Maths, i didnt pay attention ;x
EOY coming.
& Im sick now. ):
Trust me. SICK.
Tommorow going to the doctor. Im getting a high fever now.
;(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

ps:
Happy Birthday Fazlin! :D

lol

2008-09-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

so, I am so bored I played dress up games. ;o

Here are some of the one I did.

I think I like girl 3 the most la. haha.

Now going off, go finish art

buhbyeee:D

3rd day fasting(:

2008-09-02T22:01:00.000-07:00

Yay. Im left to paste my leaves on the hat and the butterfly wings, then done!
Phew!

Left to do:
-Maths
-Lang arts
-DnT

gosh. thats a lot! ):
oh oh. & I got one more hari raya clothes! blue in colour ;DD
Today after sahur, I got a msg from my dear.
Guess ah?
Sakina! hahahah! She was like, "hamizah! Selamat bersahur!"
& I was like laughing like hell.

Ytd I cannot sleep sia. Bro had to watch me slp, then he close light.
So, let me continue. Then I msged sakina la. haha until I fell asleep [=
Today I cannot get my peaceful sleep. ):
Take note: Never put your hp beside you when you want to sleep a peaceful one.
Haiya, nvm, Maybe it was a note that it is time for me to wake up!
So I did my art, paint paint.
Im bored now, waiting for it to dry. So I'm playing some games.
Ytd I chat with ashikin and I gave her the four faces I will give her when I see her new hair.
hahahha.

Okay, thats all. Im very bored. ):
& I always thought, when fasting month, got nice shows specially for ramadhan on Suria or RTM but don't have! )):

Ntg to watch on tv. Lazy to do homework.
so, 27 more days to raya, 19 more days to exams.
Lets look forward to the faster one.
sheesh. They say this holiday can be used to revise,
My foot!
Homeworks are piling up! How to revise?
Nevermind, calm down.
Next post..Hmm. If I'm not lazy! ;D

When I think of it,

2008-09-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

Today was tiring and sick.
I woke up late and had a flu. But dragged myself to meet tanJiehao & Yimin.
LOL. Then we do teh board all. But we were all too tired and clueless.
Plus the wheels like kisiao.
bodoh wheels.

Then I went home fast. I slept all the way.
Dad woke me up, he drank water and off to work.
Today nothing much la. Just very tired.

You know, I dreamt that we went to prom
and we danced,
eh obviously Im not going to write what happen.
But sometimes, I wish dreams will just stay as dreams.

When I find that all this race was just hopeless,
Thats where you will be there, picking me up and bringing me to a new race
This time, we're running together.

But when you know the race isn't for you,
You slowly back away from his grip,
& you're all alone again, running.

O_O

2008-08-31T22:54:00.000-07:00

woah. I just received news.
I am getting a maid? :O
But she;ll be helping nenek alot, so she stay at nenek house.
But if they go holiday and I dont, she;s staying with meee.
I wonder how is she. I wanna noe her. I hope she's good man.
but omg. ;xxxxxx

Happy berpuasa(:

2008-08-31T20:48:00.000-07:00

Gosh I never update for long hor. Haiya. I'll just start on friday. Tired ah.

Friday(:
Gave gfs the muffins I made for them. Hope its nice eh.
Then had class games. Lame laa.
Then we watched some videos and mr wu came in. He teached us abit, then free time.
Recess was longggg.
Adila, Sakina were splashing water from above. Haha. Very chaotic la the hall.
Then the concert. I slept awhile. ;x wait soo long mahh...
Overall the concert was nice. The dance was nice, The videos, the other dances, the hero song.
Yeahh. Then rushed up to art room. Ms ng cute siaa.
She hugged all of us. Hahha.
The white chocolate cake was nice((:
Sorry ashikin I couldnt go home with youu.
We played musical chairs, which I won!
But I had to do forfeit. ): chicken dance.
Then played murderer.
The last round of murderer, I won! Because I killed EVERYBODY. Except the nurse, mansor, because he keep healing himself. Selfish fool.
Mum gave me an sms: "Don't come home yet"
So I was like...what am I gonna do?
So I followed the boys go eat ice kachang. [Danial, Fadhil, Mansor, Imran]
lol. Then angel said she hungry, she came and eat and left.
Then we talk talk then go home. Lol. Thanks guys.
When i reached home, I realised no one was at home at all.
Then mum came from the kitchen and gave me fish & chips? hahaha. nice nice(:

Sat:
Went to buy mum's things for her company dinner.
Then went check-up. Kindda scary la.
Then home alone. ):
Dad go soccer. Mum go dinner. Bro go night safari, sis go aunt house.
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

Sunday:
Went to buy hari raya clothes.
Walked the whole geylang.
Heng I bought my clothes. It was at Bimla. ahhaha. X___x
One was reddish maroon, anotehr green. Get one free le! But My mum asked me give to my sis the free one. ))):
Altogether $190? ya. ok laa. Get free packets and this pen holder. hmm..
Very tired can? But I get to eat mushroom chicken steak. nice nice!
Then heard the prayer, & I realised, It was already Ramadhan.
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You Know, It amaze me when i think of Ramadhan.
Because I realise, all the devils are locked up for this fasting month,
while the gates of heaven are open widely.
You must refrain from saying bad words or doing bad things, touching bad things, seeing bad things. [oi no more porn!]
And when you pray, the best part is, the pahala[thegooddeedsthingythingy] is more then normal day praying.
And its fun after the azan to tell us its time to break fast, I alwaes look out the window, see all the boys go sembahyang terawih.
[umm duhh. The block opposite me, got one malay family, all boys ;DDD]

& after a month of your preserverance, its time to celebrate hari raya(:
But you are actually suppose to be sad, because ramadhan is ending and all the devils are coming out.
Sometimes saddens me to think abotu raya, because 4 days before raya, My grandmother died. I miss her kuihs. ):
Then at the night of raya, when your house is already ready, with the kuihs on top of the table, the new curtains all up, the house is spotlessly clean, You can hear the kids playing the sparklers. Remind you of childhood eh?
Then you get ready for tommorow, the clothes all ironed, the make up all ready.
Then you go to sleep. Tommrow is time for forgiveness.
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Okay, I'll continue more when raya gonna come.
Haha. To all muslims out there,
Selamat Berpuasa!

& I miss ZOMXRZ<3>Close up that space in your heart, & you'll realise Im not needed there.

):

2008-08-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

I am a sick sick person.
I hate you body. Fcuk you la.
I don't like to be brought to the doctor.
But its very painful. I cannot not see.
fcuk you man. fcuk you.
Lets just pray ntg happen.

will post about the day soon. maybe tommorow?
on free days. Now struggling in finishing art & geog.

phew.

2008-08-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

eep. ;oo I keep sneezing & sneezing.
cold cold colddd days. ):
Today ST was okay. PE, was boring. ;x
Maths, mr wu come late. Recess was with Eugenia; mansor;angelina; jie hao
Malay class was the surprising one.
We were doing hari raya lyrics? LOL. semangat sia!
Lang arts, umm i slept ;D Nobody paid attention to ms. wong. I kindda pity her la.
History, very short la. Coz Mrs kuan had a meeting.
So I sat with adila all awhile.
then CCA. lol.
[ps: I have to thank Sing Yee alot]
then bored la. do song, then wait for other groups.
But by today, everyone already ahd smtg to do in SYF.
yay.
Then went dinner with Karen and angelina.
Then we went to look for dnt stuffs.
Me & angel bought bubbles.
We took the bridge [gosh. i didnt noe there was one!]
then blew blew bubbles.
But I threw away mine's.
blehh. =.=" Then followed Karen go from prime to econ to look for paper cup.
Went home. gosh gosh. tireddddd.
JH was calling non-stop.
"eh, the sides paste where? then what about the wings? the rollers? the paint? the this that this that"
LOL. If I knew, why would I give it to you to improvise? =.=
Im tired. I seriously am.
DnT speed competition tommorow, History project, art[hat]

HAIZ. oh. and the Fasting month is coming.
You know, I find fasting month amazing.
It stops me from saying the bad words.
It stops me from doing all the bad things la.
I mean, it is a challenging task but at the very end, you find it fulfilling.
Its like a race. But you can't eat or drink during a race mah.
So run run run until you reach the finish line [at dusk when you break fast]
and the sense of relief just pass through your body like,

Gosh I did it. I did it!

And the next day you go through another race again.
Its a challenging thing physically and mentally.
What the things we do now cannot be done anymore during the fasting month.
Like a sacrifice. Its fun to see how everyday challenges meet up with more challenges.
And that makes me push myself forward.

ok why am I talking rubbish about the fasting month?
haiz. im TIRED. ):
gosh.

Oh and to Mr. Reel, cheer up lah! There's other tests correct? jia you!

OK. IM TIRED. byeeee

and i love wait, let me get the spelling...

zomfzxzxzxz? [IS THAT HOW YOU SPELL IT? ]

Pain pain

2008-08-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

yay for my second post.

Anyway, I found the freaking song Mansor was singing during LCE.
hahahahha. Had a GREAT laugh.
rock on ah Bumbiyadum! :D

EXAMS IS COMING. IN EXACTLY ONE MONTH.
*runs around* die die. shit mans.
first dae hari raya, next day, science exam. -.-""

About raya, Im not excited this year
Keep thinking about exams.
Maybe the mood just isnt sinking yet?
Gosh, Takbir Raya.
And the number of tissues use.
I've done so many sins this year ):

{PS: as im writing this, my lungs is breathing in hot hot air. pain pain. ):}

Still so many projects, but this time, due date is superclose!
Very bodoh luh. X____x
buck up lah Hamizahbodoh. ;x

Okay. I want to sleep. Goodnite! ;D
bumbiyadum bumbiyadum bumbiyadam bum ;D

I can rock your ass hard.

Sometimes ;x

2008-08-22T04:29:00.000-07:00

Today was boring?
Lang arts, copied so semangat on the book, then that ms wong ask do on journal. =.=
Maths, I had to sit beside YuXiang because jon took my place, hong wei took jon place.

Recess

Science, boring la. =.=
LCE, free period. Sat with imran, syafiq and mansor.
but then boring again. ms ng nvr come. haiyo. boringggggggg.
Then I was looking outside the window when suddenly eugene and belinda came and scared me.
hahah.

Then suaini came in, gave us a journal.
grr.
then thats all(:

When you realise you just can't put your head up, because you would always be there.

Stay strong):

2008-08-20T07:32:00.000-07:00

I gotta stay strong. go go.
So many projects and homework.
So many things going on.
So many things playing infront of me.
I need to take it all.
I gotta stay strong, go..go. ):

Home

2008-08-19T00:51:00.000-07:00

went home early today. feel too tired. sorry gfs.
Today was normal, but like i no energy ah.
DnT was lucky la, but they say our NM car small.
scored a 24/30. oh well. 1.5 marks away from the highest grp.

Thats all for the day.
Im going to go sleep now.
oh oh btw! just now i open hotmail la
then i was looking for my cbox code.
Then I found the link to the story thingy?
cool la. I read their fifth book.
I just wanna noe, was she raped or was she willing to do it to have john?

haha ok.
oh oh. this is about my blogskin. idk?

{Underneath the stars;
I looked up tonight.
Will I stay here forever?
So many chances walk by, But did I let it all go?
I sat at the bench. I looked at the moon.
A sad story unvails me.
I looked at how darkness has fallen so quickly.
My only companion, the stars and moon.
Making wishes everyday, sitting all alone.
Come soon. I am tired of waiting.
My heart thumped quickly against my chest.
Did I just did it? Did I just wrote that?
Do I really know what will happen?
Was it a win lose situation?
I sighed as I look at the stars again, this time wishing
That you don't come soon enough.

):

2008-08-18T05:49:00.001-07:00

Today was tiring.
Studied like hell for ST.
And sec2s were lost at the courtyard. Lol.

St was okay. Luckily I studied(:
PE was funny
Our group didnt win but oh well.
Then I gues I was blur.
This is what happen:

Angelina: HAMIZAH! CATCH THE BALL!
Me: Huh what?

and shoosh, bam bam!
The ball hit hard on my face (the whole left side)
So luckily Mr Kheng sent an ice pack up to class.
Muahaha. Maths mr wu nvr come.
very slackish.

Recess, im sorry.
I just had to burst it all out. Angel was talking to me about things.
& I felt so stressed up.

Malay was.... =.=
Test paper, didnt did well.
Then watched this movie. lol?

Lang arts:
Angel came to our table. Then she cried.
My deepest condolence to your family.
Then I cannot see people cry so I cried, then Fazlin cried.
Haiz.

History:
wow I failed. -.- yes my ca!
duhh...I nvr submitted my recycled paper.
hahaha. 48 le..2 more marks.
OH WELLL.
Then Mrs Kuan accepted our Game proposal(: yay

After school, straightaway go CCA.
This time dun wanna come late.
MrG was talking about SYF.
Then we had to come up with a song with a african twist?
lol. I had Vanessa, Sing Yee, Anu, Me, Sakina and Claudsen inside our group.
Then we came up with the song and presented.
Then suddenly G was like,
"1, 2, 3, 4, 5 of you. All of you come sit here. We welcome our first group of SYF choir for the performance"

hahah. we were all like what?
Then went home with Hong wei bro, Karen darl, Angelina darl and Chen mama. hahah. Is that what they call her?

Home at last(: Now I have to make dnt.
Im very very tired and tommorow is evaluation.
Haizz. So many things to do!

and wednesday is SY bdae!
haiyoo. stress stress. busy busy busy.

Things to do:
-Sy bdae card & present
-Dnt [bee wings]
-Malay project
-History project
-Haiya ;x

I don't know what to do.

Im scared.
I don't know when.
I can't keep you waiting.
I watched the rain just now.
I know I would do it again. & I don't want to.

Dnt(:

2008-08-16T06:25:00.000-07:00

Yay. I finished my non-motorised dnt.
Cute girly butterfly. ahha
It could travel 5 metres. But some times only.
Could be because we have no rollers yet?
Oh well. Lets just pass the evaluation first.
Oh ya. At 7-eleven got fight le. This old man shout to the counter. lol.

We spent 8 hours under the block. Painting, cutting, buying things, {include breaks can?}, pasting.
& goshh.. The freaking wind was sooooooo strong, everything flew.
Our file flew to the road. Our goggly eyes fell in the drain, our butterfly body fell in the grass and goes through the rain, our plastic sheets and beads all fell to the floor.
Disastrous. But me & jie hao were laughing like hell.

Haiz. I don't know what I'll do without them.
At least the motorised is quite complete. Only our motor kinda spoilt. ;x
But its going through a unpainful process. haha.

Lets see;

Maths hmwrk: 5 more ques.
Science: revisionnn!!!
Art: I hope to paint my hat.
Dnt: Both cars done designing to pass through my evaluation.
History: Mind you, My group havent done the paper ;x it tore mahh...

Hmm, Thats all?
Done(:

when you realised the greatest love of all in your life was you yourself
& i found that realisation because I am happy with myself
when memory become a reality I have to face it
when love become a game I have to quit it
when friends become a family I have to love it
when time become a past I have to go through it
when family becomes wild I have to be with it
when I realised that I was going through life, I went for it.

{Look around

2008-08-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

Hey hey.
Lets talk about today. Stop time and listen.
I had a super bad tummyache at the hall. was at th toilet when majulah was singing.
hahahah. Thank you Fazlin(:
Then lang arts, boring.
Oh ya history.
Our recycled paper tore ):

Recessssss.

Maths was funny.
Me & fazlin were too stressed out.
So we had a masking tape and permanent marker.
We taped it over our mouths.
haha. Mr wu even laughed at us.
Then we laughed really bad.
Too stressed.

Then Eugene gave us an evil laugh
which was freaking evil, then he took alot of masking tape and taped my mouth.
hahahahah.

Science was okay, but abit boring.
But I can get the hang of it luh.
Tommorow giving back digestion test.
Hope I pass(:

After school was sleepy. haha
Then crapped with GFs + Junting
Then Ashikin made my hair. haha niceee(:
Then went home with Sakina.
I was bored, So I steaded with her.
hahahahahaaahhh! Yes I did.
I want make it one day uh. sssh. My secret plan.
hahahahha!
{please, take it as a joke. Im not a les. x__x}

Then I prayed, slept all the way.
Mum was home. She cleaned the house top to bottom. cool.
Then she woke me up, made for me grilled fish.
Thanks mum. I really missed your food. ):
And now Im here. Bored and tired.

Thats all(:
Hmm. Lets see whats gonna happen next week.

Monday: ST & CCA
Tuesday: DnT evaluation. die.
Wednesday: Art [doing hat]
Thrusday & friday I dun noe.

Haiz.Busy busy life. ):

BACK(:

2008-08-13T02:52:00.000-07:00

IM BACK WITH A NEW BLOGSKIN.
HAHAH. You guys can look at a new one now while im off.
Fucking tired nowadays.
so many projects.
No time at all.
Those precious sleep...
anyway life is okay.

I know. miss out alot of my life.
hmm. BUSY BUSY BUSY))):
Haiz.

Eve of national day:
boring luh. I sat alone. ok maybe i had imran as my company.
thn SR fainted. But he faint can smilee
hahaha. hmm, let me see. the concert was kinda boring.
The songs are. ;x
then ate lunch and home.
no wait. I sat at sculpture park alone.

National day:
my dnt group meet-up.
hahaha. luckily now eveyone can make it
but jie hao left early to take belinda shorts?
yahh.. so left threee. haiyo.
Then went dinner with family.
boring.

After national day:
more boring.
went shopping.
Oh well, two tops is fine(:

after after national day:
went cp. saw adila & sakina!
then all 5 of us go angel house.
do history project.
I guess it tak menjadi.... ;x

tuesday:
boring boring.
DnT
then health check-up.
lame la. I kena very long le.

Nurse: stand girl. k. LEGS TOGETHER. k. okay bend. ok stand again. ok bend. no no stand again. RELAX UR ARMS! ok bend.

=.=

Wed:
art was okay.
geog too. I wasnt concentrating much.
then went home.
Haiz. I seriously cannot.
Im starting to look at it normally
but when all the memories suddenly rush back,
I felt painful.
I don't want the pain. I wanna move on happily.
shit myself. shit me mememememe. ):

HAIZ. k dats all.
I love gfs.
and find me a blog song!
btww.... here's for entertainment.
very funny.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTC4qkb8Ppk&feature=related

YOU BETTER SEE AH GUYS! HAHAHA. ;D

Wonders

2008-08-06T07:40:00.000-07:00

Haven't you ever wondered?
Its just another wonder of the Earth.
What humans occupy it with.
With love, with hatred, with sadness and the list go on.
Haven't you ever wondered how?
How love was formed,
How sadness arise
How hatred was strong
Haven't you ever wondered why?
Why love was here,
Why sadness filled the air,
why hatred becomes pain,
Haven't you ever wondered?
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Sorry had this urge.
Im freaking tired.
I don't know
I wanna live life as life,
But like im living life as life wants me to live it.
I wanna go my own way
Im so tired of school
Im so tired of anyhting.
I can't think anymore
Break down at home, at toilets
What?
I just gotta move on with life.

Life, I hate you.
But I would really love you if you just let me have mine.

Haizzzz. today vanessa said I was too emo, then she smacked my butt.
Farah made me shout in class because she poke me
Imran scolded me for throwing his test paper
I made faz & angel laughed during art
I laughed with fadhil at the com lab
I ate with Karen at RM
I saw nice handphones.
I laughed at Suani during recess
I cried at the canteen coz it was too sweet
I was irritated by sounds

ok. & ice tour rock the ice like WOOO~
Ok. dats all for now(:

& I FOUND A NEW BLOGSKIN!
HAHAH! ssshh.

cdasc

2008-08-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

IM TIRED TIRED TIREDDD.
TIRED OF BEING FED-UP WITH DNT GROUP.
FUCKING TIRED.

grr.
Last sat, me & yimin spend alot of hours just to finish NM cars
and thats without the guys help!
Yuan rong went idk where, pangseh us le!
Jie hao sick.
Like tiring okay.
Me & yimin were so stressed we were just talking without doing.
grr.

Then now I told them both boys go do la the motorised
but all clueless.
monday NO ONE is free.
freakkiiinggg tired
My NM car not working perfectly, but can work la.
My M car? Idk. x.x

IM TIRED OF SCHOOL
IM JUST PLAIN TIRED OF SCHOOL.
FREAKING TIRED OF LESSONS.
OF HOMEWORKS.

My brain could just burst now and then
good luck for DnT tommorow. You need it.

2008-08-01T06:25:00.000-07:00

AAAHHH
*runs around in circles*
i should haveee.
waaaaaaa.
*pray pray*

220th post!

2008-07-28T05:56:00.000-07:00

hahaha! I am a happy happy girl.
Okay, half of it.
Early morning went to school, suddenly someone jumped on me.
HAHAHA. It was gfs, adila & fazlin! They hugged meeeee.
ohh. I miss them alottt.
Then hug sakina when arrive, sat down and study ST.
then hug ashikin when she came then went to courtyard.

Then gave MC . very henmafann. Coz i got three bloody MCs.
Then maths ST. I cried because i didnt complete ;x
yay me.
I only did one bloody line for graph.
x.x
Then PE. hahaha. very very messy.
40 people chasing for one ball.
coool. I had a personal "nurse" Mr yuanrong because I wanted to vomit. x.x

hmm. maths, idk. ok la. I spend my time at toilet because I vomitted.
boo.

Then suddenly recess, i had a major major majorrrr cramp/intestine dk what shit.
I couldnt move and was screaming outside class.
x___x
then malay lesson. haha. i nvr did the bina ayat.
I cnnt write laaa! pain okay!

hmm lang arts, truth or daree!
But SOME PEOPLE were pissed offf.
oh welll.
Then angelina had to hug the teacher. woahh sporting ah!

Then HOMEEEE.
coz mrs kuan nvr comeeee. xD

Drama was boring.
very very boring. Dun wanna say.

Then waited for Karen , angelina , liyen
ahah. Then uhh. I went dinner with Karen darl!
LJS, niceeeee. then we walked all the way back.
I was holding my pain.
when I went home, I put down my bag. scream in pain
and bathe in the toilet while listening to music. ;x
Eh, I can still sms people okay!

Then ta-da! Im here
because I missed 4 days, & i'll be missing more.
I hate stomach flu.
I hate what the doctor said to my mum.
yaya wtv.

okay. thats long. hahahahaha. updates updates! ;D THE END ;DDDD
& bloody hell, you better come home.
Its been two weeks I cannot take it.
Your mum stays at home crying. Ya I can see a fucking mask being put on.
what? run run run. stupid you know.
Just come home. Don't tire us by searching for you.
Please, Come back will you? ):

)):

2008-07-23T20:02:00.000-07:00

I MISS GFS LIKE ABCC!! )):
I MISS EVERYONE LAAA!

eep. so unlucky. Get stomach flu. Tonight going back to the doctor.
x___x If the doctor doesnt work, I needa go to another doctor.
and its $40 bucks okayyy!

Monday:
Was so happy eating recesss then go malay room
Then they take pics. Suddenly go toilet and vomit all the food i ate.
Halfway by the locker, Vomit again.
Yeah, then cnnt tahan le.

oh! But we all played truth & dare in lang arts. x.x
hahahahah! FUNN:D
Liyen had to do chicken dance infornt of the whole class.
Larry had to catwalk.
Angelina had to do pole dance
Eugene had to touch vanessa's hair
I had to say "I LOVE YOU" to jie hao.
Imran had to say to Pearlyn "you sexy ah!"
Mansor had to...Uhh i forgot.

haha yeah(: then cnnt go drama. sry sakinaa!
Then at night do doctor.
LOL. My tummy hurt siaaa. he knock here, knock there.

Tuesday:
Feeling very very sick.
everything I ate came out.
But I online-ed at night to do my group presentation.
I hope they could(:
and i only completed my hard copy scrapbook.
My digital scrapbook i only found the articles. ;x

Wednesday:
High feveeerrr/. I HATE STOMACH FLU! ):

Thrusday:
Still high fever. tonight going doctor.
Just now Ms. Ng called. awwwww ^^
hhhahahahah!

k. dats all. I hope I return back to school by next week or better yet, tommorow(:

yay

2008-07-14T07:27:00.000-07:00

Today I arrived in school with slippers.
Then suddenly someone called my name.
Homg. Its phenie laa. xD
Then blabla.
ST was okay laaa. But I was ss-ing. felt so empty coz Liyen was not sitting infront.
Then blaaaa.
Lang arts, I sat with belinda and we began reading almost everything on the purple book.
BOREDOOOMMM.
The cher was in her own world. ;x
Then history, GOSH.
MRS KUANNNN! COME BACK LUHHH!
we got this -_- teacher.
she scolded mansor for saying : hi
YES. -.-"

Then went for CCA.
IM STARTING TO LOOOVE drama.
i went in
& G was like,
"who tell you to chase boys! see what happen to your leg!"

Oh well, I didnt chase them.
only, EUGENE SAT ON YM FREAKING LEG LAST FRIDAY.
which resulted me to cry infront of 43 people.
embarassing.

oh then play game. which i cnnt play
the bunnny game. hahha.
Then next was the "opening up" time.
suddenly G called me first.
I was like soo shock. x___x
speechless sia.
then yeah. G adviced alotttt. <3

Then break, then this love session. hahha.
Hug girls.
I must walk slowly la.
but I hug all the unknown people.
MUHAHAHA.

Then suddenly we all sat down.
G asked for two best friends.
& sakina raised her hands.
so we hugged! hahaha.

Then umm, listen somemore to G.
and then me & SY waited for Karen.
we went cp to __________.
Karen was laughing abt this anjuna? x.x
haiyoo. hahahhaha!
Then _________. and sy went home
leaving me & Karen to eat dinner.
woah had fun with her alottt sehh.
We then ate ice cream. & my ice cream fell on th table ;o
hahah i love her!

Okay. thats all. (:

So...

2008-07-07T01:54:00.000-07:00

ok fuper bored. and tired. -.-
I lazy to go follow my aunt go buy birthday present for my mum.
I don't wanna mention why.
hmm friday was super boring.
a stupid water game.
that doesnt even makes us wet. -.-""""!!!
then maths, blaaa.
Then go eat with gfs.

Sat:

I was too tired to even touch one homework.
go buy stuffs with my mum.
*yawn*

Sun:

Religious class was fun.
I played with marini the spin spin thingy.
ahahah. because she was not pleased with last week's result.
But somehow we alwaes meet, either voiddeck or occupation.
hahah. Then suddenly the teacher was talking about marriage.
& her aunt name was nama. & hafiz made us shock by saying his brother was chinese but the rest not. -.- cousin laaa.

Then went buy food for cousin.
So fast then suddenly we were looking for hari raya clothes.
=.= My dad is not going to bring me go buy when fasting.
=.===== ""

Then went Library. I had a feeling I was meeting someone, & I did! ;D
I met huda ria at banquet! Jambuuu! ;DD
so paiseh. I wear so ugly. x___x

Today:
Im suppose to go with gfs. I slept at cousins house.
But they wanted to go PSP
My cousin ask my mum. and she was like sying last minute what shit.
): Haiz. sry guys! sorry sorry! ):
see ma! i never go! im still not over the bloody thing you suddenly shout at me ytd night.
i was just taking smtg, not making her wait mah! & you nid to shout to come home early.
Fuck la. I never do anything. then end up dad must scold me also.
earth to you. I have ears.
decided to go lunch with angelina at the nearby coffeeshop.
then too bored, went common green.
k dah.

tomorow there's DnT.
there's malay/
Im tiredd. ):

oh. maybe im slow la. but i decided to put this song. ;D
7 things by Miley cyrus

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you
Oh you

You're vain your games you're insecure
You love me you like her
You make me laugh you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say
And what I need to hear now is your sincere apology
When you mean it
I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it, let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
Your taking seven steps here

The 7 things I hate about you

You're vain your games you're insecure
You love me you like her
You make me laugh you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

Compared to all the great things
That would take to long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you

Your hair your eyes your old levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine when we're intertwined
Everythings alright I want to be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like the most that you do

You make me love you
You do,
ohOohhhh oooooooooohhh...

so many shit la this home.
shitty shit. turn here, shit. turn there, shit.
shit home.

nvm, im going to happy up myself.
im gonna watch all my brother's korean dramas.
after i finish dnt xD

bahah

2008-07-03T05:26:00.000-07:00

I love ms. yeow. [idk the spelling la. ;x]

freaking tiredd.
today what ah?
i forgot sia suddenly.

im so so so so so so so tired.

You can take your time la eh.
like living in a reality dream,
that never happens.

nice right? see im so bored. i can come up with anything!

1) what shirt are you wearing? specific.
a black shirt with a teddy bear of "i love you" words.

2) who bought it?
aunt.

3) what are you drinking?
ntg. x___x

4) whats beside you, left;right;behind.

haiyoo.

Left: my aircon remote
right: the mouse
behind: a pillow

5) Did you wash you hair?
umm. yeah. ;x

first things:

1) first holiday: umm I heard that I was still in my tummy.
2) first operation: don't rmbr. baby
3) first hp: pri 1
4) first crush: x___x K2
5) first house: toa payoh?
6) first song: twinkle twinkle little starrr ;D
7) first sibling: my bro

Last:

1) last call: a few minutes ago
2) last bath: half an hour ago.
3) last holiday: umm KL IC trip?
4) last dinner: hmm. 5 + [im freaking full]

ok done. im bored laaa. go do only if you are bored.
oh wait. my blog cnnt copy paste isit?

2008-07-02T05:43:00.000-07:00

painn

okay lah.
nowadays, what happne ah?
i ss with sakina alot. laugh laugh
went dinner with karen,
um cca, suckish school.

;x

i got 1/10 for an old science test.
WONDERFULLLLLL.
oh. and i was sleeping like a pig when my dad wake me up
then i scratch myself at the fan. coz i was too sleepy.
got blood okay!

):

dats all. super busy
and the china students come.

IM SO STRESSSSSSS.
chiong to eoy.

schoolll

2008-07-01T06:28:00.000-07:00

school is stressful. some updates:

Malay:
became more tough, coz maimu nvr teach us liao.
the relief teacher take us. haizz.

Maths:
tough tough.

science:
Learning abt atoms

eng:
still friedrich, but next week moving to essay.

PE:
floorball. hot hot.

DnT:

x_____________x

STRESSFULL.
)):

art:
ok la. but the stress is coming.

STRESS STRESS STRESSS
school makes me have no time to hang out with gf,
to find a new blogskin
find a new friendster layout.
talk to lovable people.
think abt life
kiss my sygs
watch tv

HAIYA. STRESS OKAYY
))):

CHIONG ALL THE WAY TO EOY!

GOGO!

Blog's dead.

school blues

2008-06-23T07:46:00.000-07:00

school was chaotic. ;x
all messy in the hall.
I sat beside Belinda. :D
wah. assembly boring lorr.
then yeah. lessons very, bleah. -.-
WE FINISH AT 3 LEHH.
GODDD. RECESS AT 11.30
WOAAAHHH. IM HUNGRYY! ):
Tommorow got DNT
x.x
btw, like i have rashes
but my mum dun believe me. =.=
>;[
oh yeah. Today, at drama, was very shocking.
I love the police skit. Its saddd. ):
what Mr.G told us was kindda shocking
*prays hard*

okay. im tired. i haven done malay hmwrk. ;x
haiya. stupid laaaaaaa. ):

byeee. ;d

school

2008-06-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

school starting
gonna buck up for SA2
bye computer
bye holidays
hellos disastor.

wtf

2008-06-20T06:28:00.000-07:00

one & a half more essay plan
17 more stars.
1 more essay.

Im gonna turn crazy ):

and fuck just now.
I never even raise my voice.
I only say I massage ur feet just now already mah.
Never even raise my fucking voice la.
You are the one that raise!

fuck laa.
I better just shuddup.
I don't want to spoil tommorow's dinner.
relax. )):

I wanna cry now! tissue!

210th post

2008-06-18T06:21:00.000-07:00

k. im here. i cnnt go online for idk what reason.
I mean MSN.
i online for questa club. fcuking hell.
wtf is petrochemical science job?!
Im left with 5 more essay plans.
17 more stars.
alot siaa. ):
& four more days till school starts/

so I was reading my blog past.
& when I read it,
I keep forgetting everything.
YES.
EVERYTHING.
):
ohmygodd. My stm is getting very bad.
I forgot my classmates.
I forgot my dead pet bird's name.
I forgot who's all those people I wrote.

I mean yeah, technically I haven lost all my memory
But I was ...
Ok. Thats all.

bored

2008-06-17T06:21:00.000-07:00

I am so bored.
But I online to find about questa club.
Oh well. I dont even understand.

7 more essay plan.
1 more essay

17 more stars.

2 more pages of maths.

thats alott.
anyway tommorow thought want to cut hair,
But my mum don't allow.
& friends not free.

stupid projects. Stupid homework.

anyway,
yay. Shadown is online. (:
Ya, internet cant really be trusted but he's the ony friend online.
see hw bored i am.

yay

2008-06-15T08:19:00.000-07:00

Phew. finally the day came and it ended soo fast.
K. Im gonna give a detailed post. Muahha.

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woke up. Bathed, met angelina & Karen.
Then we ran for th bus. EMBARASSING.
Then go CP. Angel thought she waved at Ashikin. But it was Belinda. :D

Ok. the rest came. Had light breakfast. & train-ed there.
Arrived. Thought need to ride bus, but it was a walkway for us.
Thn decided to pratice. But went fountain first.
Angel & ashikin went first.
Then Me & adila.
so, adila pushed me to the water. i got the most wet. xD
heng got bring extra cardigan & slipper. for awhile.
Then blaaa. Pratice pratice. pple look, espiecally oreos. =.=

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Then we went to the toilet.make-up;hair.
woah. we spent hours there.
Then I had to be experiment for colour hairspray & the fire make-up.
woah.

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Then we went to th stage to mark our steps.
But were told that we have 3 slots of performance.
so we took the 1st & 2nd since 3rd one adila wont be coming.
Then wait backstage.

OK. I admit. The 1st performance was nervousss. But not alot of people at all. =.=
phew.
Had lunch. Then went to see games.
K embarassingg. me & angel & syakur were up. lost& laughing.
Then after that I went to buy water.
then played fountain with angelina again. ahahhah.
took pics. Thnx eh Syakur[I mean, sharpay]
Then I wanted to prank sharpay & angel. So they looking at this "whirlpool"

then I ran away, ;x To 7-eleven dustbin coz a tissue was inside my shoe. -.-
I thought they notice coz I called them
But no. I was a missing person.
sorry. ;x
Then ashikin & syakur go games.
hahahaa. Gay lah syakur.
then backstage.

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"must enthu!"
Okay.
Nervousss. ENTHU ENTHU.
out we went.
Okay. we rockkkk. ;DDD
hahahaahaghhahahahahah.
FUN FUN;D

Then we went to see somemore games.
adila went off to th TKGSS band concert.
joyce & belinda also went home.
Then left ashikin ; karen ; syakur ; angel ; me.
Then see th games. Then ashikin went off with alarmclock.
Then left four of us.

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we sang itsy bitsy spider. hahahahaha.
& the host keep calling us.
hahahahahha.

Then technical difficulties. aww.
Then bla bla. we went off to CP.
Too bored mah.
Hhahahahaha
WE WERE TOO HYPER.
gt the underground walkway. since its empty, we four did a catwalk there. ahahhahah!
crazyyyy.
Then we laugh laugh. make lame jokes.
all th way to CP , We were laughing for no reason.

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Bought dinner.
Duh, no one is at home. =.=
Then angel went off first. ):
oh ya. we called ourselves.

Kash. [our initials]

hahaha. Its pronounce as "cash"
hahahaha.
Then the trios walked arnd & arnd.
but we were TOO TIRED.
so byeee.
went home.

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I was like so sad while walking home.
OKay, then reach home, as usual nobody.
):
I wished I celebrated Father's day.
But why must Dad work? ):
I took a nap. until mum woke me up.
I was like. =.=
Then blaa.
i spent half an hour in the toilet.
pulling my hair.

ALOT FELL OFF. ):
I was like scrubbing. the bathroom floor green. xp
Then here i am.

Ok. tommorow class chalet.
Im gonna chiong alll my hmwrk./
I left

7 essay plans; one essay

2 pages in maths worksheet.

still 18 stars in questa. ):

& MATHS PROJECT

ONE MORE WEEK & SCHOOL STARTTTSSS. ):
boo.

currently on MSN, sakina, nah, i posted

Dad, Its not fair.
Sometimes I wish I can have fun just like when I was young.
But you kept working. I didnt get to talk with you.
each time I hear abt my friends celebrating;
give card or whatever,
I felt like crying.
I did try to make a card.
But you lost it as it was too dusty.
then I stopped.
I wanted to wish you
But no, you weren't at home.
I always talked to mum only.
But I also need a dad to talk to. ):
Work is important, but its Father's day.
))):
& now he's asleep.
too tired to say anything.
): & I feel like crying.

hello

2008-06-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

k. very tired to update
we pratice practice.
then sat, i went adila band concert.
Can say it was fun la. but my leg hurt.
we buy flower. haha. i chose sakina & angelina flower
then yeah. go home.

tommorow.
k im so tiredd.

come support Silent Lullaby at Novena(united square)

DETAILS:

Time: should be around 2-5p.m?
Where: United Square, Novena

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http://www.unitedsquare.com.sg/events.html

Idk if this can help.
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How to go there?

Bus Services : 21, 56, 57, 124, 131, 166, 518, 851, 980,5, 54, 143, 162, 162X, 167
MRT Station : Novena MRT[North South Line]

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come support us okay? Then shout shout our name ;D

HAHAHA. k. thats all.

Btw, since tommorow father's day,
go drag your WHOLE family here and support us. muahaha

Happy Father's day Papa.
You may not be around at the house often,
I may not talk to you much,
I may not see you much,
I may not go out with you once a month,
But you are still my dad.

tired

2008-06-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

im freaking tired & hungry.
Because I just finished chasing my brother for the remote control.
k. will post soon.

Maths; ~~1 2 3 4 5~~ 6 7 8

3 more pages

essay plans; only did one ;x

9 more to go.

questa club; 20 stars

none done. ;d

stupid homework.

beppbop

2008-06-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

Haha. Ytd dream make me sleep over & over again.
Mum shouted for me to wake up at 8. I was like, uh. umm yeah.
then I stretch my leg. decided to sleep until 9.
But ended up sleeping until 9.40. ;x
Then I lie down on bed. Eyes stilll so sleepy
Mind you, Im still yawning now.
Then go toilet not to bathe.
Then go back to bed. ;D
Then wake up at 10.02
Then sit at computer.
Im still tired. Might as well go for another round of sleeep. ;DD
Smelly Tired pig.

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This two days of HSM was greaaaaat. (:
But I keep forgetting my steps. d;
haiya. But we all agreed on one thing,
no matter what happens, we stil get free tickets!
& hsm has been causing us to be going to CP alott. & buying cup walker alottttt.
ytd almost everyone came. Only adila who had band camp. Take caree.
Funn lah(: But would be better if complete groupp.
[oh im suppose to bathe noww!]
Then went CP, bought cup walker.
Angelina had a laughing disorder.
Karen & I were chased off by the Old Chang Kee people coz we were just standing there thinking. ;p
Then they both laugh crazily at mcdonalds.
Then end up on the bus.
wahlaoooo. Perfume please?
THen I started laughing, all of laugh laugh.
Gosh. ;x
Then while walking home, me & karen were like,
"what if he has a blog?"
Then we started laughing again.

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yes yes.
one more dayyy.
& im gonna be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;DD
eh wait. tommorow's thrusday right?

*jumps*

Okay. Im gonna bathe soon. 12.15? xD

What the Fuck

2008-06-01T04:47:00.000-07:00

what the fucking hell la siak.

wow thanks eh mama.
Great.

1) Yesterday night, amidst the aircon and reading the book,
mama suddenly came in without knocking.
she was like slamming the door open.

Mum: Eh, why I smell smoke here ah?!
Me: huh? smoke? From where sia..
Mum: YOU SMOKE AH?!
Me: huh?! NO.
Mum: Are you sure? *gives me that quizical look*
Me: ya. For what want to smoke?
Mum: you better not. Or not...

whatthefuck la. I have the brains not to smoke.
& who would want to smoke at home in my room
at 1.30 am?!

2)Then the next day, my mum received a call from cik min.
whatthefuck man.
she was like forcing me to bloody migrate with cik hana.
JUST BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO GO TO INDONESIA WITH HER.

grr. don't force la! >;[

3)Then I went to Giant with mum & sis coz wanted to buy stuffs before mum & dad go this thrusday.
Oh yeah, They "grounded" me on the three days.
so i cannot go out unless to the library.
wtf.
Then I saw outside the bus some guy coughing after he smoke.
then my mum was like,

"see. this what happen when you smoke."

& she was looking at me.

grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Luckily today she started praying.

fucked up with my family alot sia.

Then just now I kena scolded by bro & mum just because the TV was on while I was switching on the computer.

=.=

seriously.
The only thing that can make me lose mood now
is this family thing.

Oh did I tell you I'll be moving in another 2 years +?
Thanks to Mr. i-wanna-go-university-overseas.
need 30, 000
but luckily its a maybe.
or not im gonna kick his ass.

>;o

So thats life. grrr.

dada

2008-05-28T22:58:00.000-07:00

Haiya. Whatever happens, Im not going to seperate or what.
Nobody is at fault.
I wish girlfriends will be much happier now.
But its all because of my crap that cause this shit.
im not blaming everyone.
I don't care if you are angry with me now.
But nfrom my heart, evenm though it may not be sincere
and even though its too late.
oh yeah, I am sorry.
sorrysorrysorrrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry.
sorry to all those things I said.
you may not wish to speak to me now.
Nobody does. Nobody is even evil here.
When Wednesday came, i really thought we could talk like normal but it seems like you haven't forgiven me at all because i thought you wrote i forgive you.
Let me repeat this again.
You may not except my apology.l
But im going to say it from my heart
that
i
am
sorry
because you may not realise it
but you were the only one i could talk to at times.
Stupid insults. I better go clean my mouth.
Final thing; I am, from my heart, sorry.

The End

2008-05-28T07:50:00.000-07:00

The end

Thats life Hamizah.

Im sorry.

I just don't know.

Sorry's not good enough.

Your not even at fault

I already told you,

I insulted you & I was wrong.

Im sorrry.

Haiz.

;x ):

The end

still hachoo

2008-05-26T01:21:00.000-07:00

gee. im still under "qurantine"
I can only be out on Wednesday. ._.
boo. I hate being sick.
I just threw 2 plastic bags full of tissues!
& mind you. They're wet. ;x

On friday night I dragged myelf to the doctor.
freaking cold. ;d
Then yeah yeah. get medicine.
I got lozenges which are like raspberry flavour?!
very very very spicy. ):
Then the antibiotics. They smell like vanilla. ;B
I couldnt even eat my porridge. ;x

on saturday, my temp was still up up & awaaay.
But my mum feed me coz i couldnt even stand up. ;x
very bad la. But parents had to go uncle's house.
& they said,
My aunt is bringing me go indonesia on 14th;15th;16th june.
& i was like,
14- adila's band concert.
15-performance on HSM
16-class chalet ah?

): boo

Sunday-
didi & dexter could not near me.
But dexter keep flying near me):
I wanted to touch that lovely bird. )):
stupid flu. die quick!
But how to?
Im not even eating that disgusting cough syrup ;B
yes. Mum doesnt noe. oh well(:

monday-
im still lying on th floor. but i dragged myself here. (:
self-entertainment.
there's suppose to be HSM practice today.
But If i were dancing, In one minute.
I'll be on the floor, sneezing & coughing.
I hope by wednesday I'm finee.
Coz I am spreading th germs around.
Daddy's now sick. hahhaa.

I hate flu. ): Coz my immume system cnnt fight flu!
Can only fight....none? xD
My nose all blocked up. Feel like sleeping. stupid medicine.
I HATE BEING SICK ): but i like the being pampered time ;D

anyway, what's up with life?
Its all jumbled up again.
I want to see Girlfriends!
I want us to be reunited and be happy again!
I'll will use this one month to mend my ways here & there.
But I miss all my girlfriends. ):

[i hate you flu. ;(]

I miss [in alphabetical order]

Adila! - that french hornist babe.

Angelina! - that netballer babe

Ashikin! - my random partner babe(:

Fazlin! - My crazy classmate babe

Sakina! - My drama partner babe

Silent Lullaby! - Reunited again(:

& all others.

SEE. I MISS ALL OF THIS ONE BY ONE.
ALLL EQUAL LOVE FROM ME;D
Haiz.

Gfs stand together, fight together, cry together, laugh together
But one thing for sure.
we love one another(:

Haiz. This wednesday I'll be better.
Im gonna hug all of them tightlyy. (:
haha. maybe my flu cn pass to them abit. xD
k no!
Okay. I dragged my sick butt here to blog.
& Im done!

btw. 5;6;7th june. Parents go honeymoon [ya. eew -.-]
anyone wanna date me? I hve all day free(:
Okay. Enjoy this freaking holidayy.
Im gonna rot at home. ):
boo. Okay byeee.
Take care! Don't let the flu bug bite!

I hate the heat ):

I MISS GIRLFRIENDS ALOT ):

super sickkkk

2008-05-22T18:44:00.000-07:00

200th post(:

so on the very last day of school.
im sitting at home. with pillows on my back,
tissues and plastic bags by my side,
with no one nor medication at home,

in one word.

SICK.

fcuk man
i was looking forward to last day of school
but since ytd, i felt diff.
then went CP to print photos.
hahha. I still have th sungei buloh trip photos!
yay! hahha. gonna print it.
wahlaoo. im like, feeling like as though im knocked down by a truck.
a truck full of flu.
sheeshh. )):
super super sad.
I want go school but i have no energy at all. =/
k. ltr i go doctor. people please folo me.

hi

2008-05-22T01:28:00.001-07:00

haiz.
tired & hungry
anyway changed blogskin.
TEMPORARY ONLY!
but song is stayingg. ;D
btw, Im down with flu.

Timeless lyrics
Baby come close let me tell you this
In a whisper my heart says you know it too
Baby we both share a secret wish
And you're feeling my love reaching out to you

TimelessDon’t let it end (no)
Now that you’re right here in my arms where you should stay
Hold tight baby
Timeless
Don’t let it fade out of sight
Just let the moments sweep us both away
Lifting us to where
We both agree
This is timeless love

I see it all baby in your eyes
When you look at me
I know I feel it too (yes I do)
So let's sail away and be forever baby
Where the crystal ocean melts into the sky

We shouldn’t let the moment pass
Making me shiver let’s make it last
Why should we lose it don’t ever let me go

Timeless
Timeless
Don’t let it fade out of sight
Just let the moments sweep us both away
Lifting us to where
We both agree
This is timeless
This is timeless
Baby its timeless
Oh baby its timeless

Timeless
Don’t let it fade out of sight
Just let the moments sweep us both away
Lifting us to where
We both agree
This is timeless
This is timeless
Love

I prefer the Korean Version.
hahha. xD rock on

sorry. ;c

Pictures(:

2008-05-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

gahh. im bored. here's some overdue pictures(:

hmm, I tied four ponytails. ;D haha. Imagine if i long hair....UGLY LA. D;

My one & only love. Didi baby<3>

The bestest candy machine(:

candid & non-candid ;D

i didnt have any photos with ashikin, so this is candid.

We were both running backwards! xD

with sakina after I slept. (look at my hair. =.=)

haha. she must be saying I was very heavy, because I fell after this shot.

Adila jumped on me, then I fell on the table. The adila piggyback me, we fell at the birdcage,

I was thrown offf twice! ;d

I didnt had any shot with angel, so this candid one can la. haha.

sakina is the blur blur thing. hahah.

This shot nice eh? at punggol end.

My face was ugly. ignore my tummyy. xD

haha. jump jump!

I freaking love this shot with fazlin. super nice eh?

The best family shot I could ever ask for(:

& fukc. I have a freaking painful headache, together with flu & swolen eyes.

yay me.

Low exam marks ):

2008-05-16T07:01:00.000-07:00

today got 4 papers back.
homgg. the marks are fcuking low. ):
geog: 41/60
maths: 34/50
Lang arts: 40/75
Malay:
surat-12/20
Karangan-38/75
Paper 2- 53/90

fuhyoo. i wonder. science, home ec, art. all will be hiyakdushfail.
anyways, tommorow kak atun is going home.
): she's been with us for 7 & 1/2 years. )):
waaa. Im gonna miss you. May God protect you. Amin.

anyways, my eye got something wrong!
Its very pain! & occasionally, its red, then pink, then white, then red again. ):
waaa. eye-mo also nvr help. Haiyoo.
Nvm, maybe tommorow I'll be saying hello to the doctor.
& Im down with a freaking flu. ):
Sheeesh. ;o

Anyways, I helped Chopsticks. You owe me two! ;x
so, thats all. Next next week holiday.
*claps*
im gonna slp till afternoon
but holidays are a bore
one month of boringness. im gonna rot!
then come back school, suddenly struggle with EOY exams preparations.
espiecally with this kind of marks, teachers not pleased.

Okay. Done(:

Its better off without me. ♥

Finally

2008-05-14T06:44:00.000-07:00

*claps*
exam is over! yayyyyyyy!
haiya. 6 words.
Im going to flunk all of it♥
hahah! oh well, as long as its over.
gfs have been coming alot to my house
haha. we had many many fun.
we sleep, alot. yeah. ahaha.
today we splashed sakina as a surprise.
welcome to the club! ;D

then we all went out to go see a movie.
wanted to see over her dead body, but it was 30 mins+ pass the movie.
so decided on congkak.
then this man, the boss, came to serve us yoghurt,
it was soo good, all of us bought one. [aiya, so bad if nvr buy]
Me & angel shared one. Black forest. YUMMY ;DDD

then eat Burger King,
then go watch. suddenly we all felt scared. haha
the toilets are combined okay! hahah!

Then watched it. scary okayy!

I gave angelina half my jacket, but she was too scared, I was left with the sleeve of the jacket.
Its a nice nice scary movie! yes! the sound effect are scariest. But some parts are stupid.
Then adila, she put her legs on top of mine, and each time she screamed, she kicked my _____.
haiyoo. xD hahah! Then the movie place was noisy. =.=
Oh well. Im still kindda shock from the movie. I don't dare play congkak liao.
Its scary, I mean it. Go watch!
Then after tht, decided to go KFC at rivervale plaza again.
hhahaah. Rohaishah rocks alot alot.
thank you so muchhhh ;D We love love love her!♥

btw, did i tell you HSM called us up again?!
YES. IM SOO HAPPYY!
GO SUPPORT ;D HAHAHA.
woohooo! Free tickets here we come!
Silent lullaby, re-alive again!
Once a silent lullabian, alwaes A Silent Lullabian♥

Eh i still rmbrd. The day we were practising
we actually thought of using we're all in this together, but its too long.
ahha. Then we come up with the group name. Music world la..all crapp.
Then we practice hard hard. The residents come see us.
Yeah it was hard, but we all got through it together(:
aww. those memories. I miss them alot. Haiz. even those after HSM♥

I feel so good. I feel so free.
Im gonna study real hard. no more obtruction in my way.
I got it all clear

Now we got a stronger group of GFs.
Stronger group of emotions, laughters and love
We'll alwaes be together.
& Silent Lullaby, those memories are too precious. I love love you!
Okay. done. Tommorow: CIP. boring!

Silent Lullaby ; Rock on♥

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So that was yesterday. ahha. forget press post!
Today CIP leaflet. got into group 5 with group 6 [leroy, yong kit & JON]
sheesh. =.= gt 6 dogs encounter. eee.
Then play playground. haha! But we waited SUPER LONG for some people. -.-
sheesh. then walk back school. super tired.
then go eat nasi goreng. k dah.

I will post pictures soon.
I will relink ALOT of people soon.
so yeah. I'll make this blog alive. With happy memories.
Thanks Imran Chopstick for making me realise life's too short.
we'll all be happy.
so what if I am disguising my happiness?
at least Im happy.

I will elaborate more. Pichas will be up soon! just wait!

Thank you for making me believe in something I shouldn't have believe in♥

ah

2008-05-11T06:19:00.000-07:00

okay.
will post soon.
hello Number 2
Goodbye number 1

ARGH

2008-05-08T05:31:00.000-07:00

I AM SO SO SO SO F*CKED UP D;
Fcuk man. Im going to fail Maths;malay;
EVERYTHING!
& I still have anotehr IC project knocking on my door. Due date: tommorow X.x
Ching ching, Mizah is failingggg.
Its a stupid blog post. =.= & I was like, waiting for 10 mins for it to load.
& IT STILL HAS NOT LOAD. >;o
Malay was fuper hard lor. Th peribahasa, only like, 3 came out?!
What the...& last question, 6 marks! =.=
Maths, today was GRR.
The teacher tell us last minute that last question no nid do. & i was struggling with it.
I finished at 9.30. Havent check, havent finish doing some sums. I mean workings.
wtff man. I struggle like shit.
*kicks the wall* hate my life.
I can see alot of marks flying away liao. *catches*
& tommorow's geography. Damm
Im such a failureee. ):
& Today im getting the answer. But they arent coming back untill 11?
wtf. By then i'll be sleeping! Stop runnign away and tell me the answer!
Sunday's mother day. I'll just sweep the floor ah. xD

I've been having a great time with my stressed-out gfs.
I find this year, our friendship is stronger.
Then we'll make it more stronger and never break it.
I'll pray.

I WISH ALLLL OF YOU LUCKK.
& WISH ME TOOO.

[btw, did you know I said F infront of a tecaher & well, he kindda turned around, but i kept my head down. ;D]

fuck. I hate today. Misery. ):

[Oh btw. Today is the 8th.]

Fuck. More misery. ahhh! *runs around, banging head on th wall* guiltyness!

[PS: btw, Im scared & sad]

Fuck. misery much.

GRRR! I'LL GO THROUGH THAT "programme" after exams!

The programme helps. It counts how many bad words you say each day, then reduce it. Gfs introduced. Haha! Its super hard! so when you say it, the others cn stop you. Hahah Okay okay! after exam! so freeeee.

Thats all. Will update, umm next week.

Geography; science; history; home ec.

4 more to go.

Its stuck on me. I can cry all night. ♥

In seven days

2008-05-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

Today went out.
I had fries & black pepper chicken.
super fulllll. Mum had fish & chips.
Dad had half spring chicken.
siala. all of us bloated.
I recommend you Zam cafe! [is that what its called?]
Then while eating, I watched Hikmah on the TV there. Hahaha. all addicted.
woosh. ;D Then go home la.

In seven days.
I'l convince you.
That I need to be here.
Please,
I'll be good. I'll be nice.
I'll be happy.
Seven days from now.
I'll make sure.
I will
I need them.
Please understand.
Seven days.

Haiz. Waterfall<3

Flu sucks.

2008-04-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

IT it wasnt for my flu, I would be at Lao pa sat enjoying satays and sugar cane juice.
Ok, Break it up. I'll post from Saturday, to today.

Sat:
Maths cube was funn. Then went to eat with the boys.
Then blaa la.

Sun:
Ntg much. Religious class was okayy. Had fun with Nini & fidi<3

Monday:
Ok sheesh. Malay Compo was poof.
I did letter writing & something about keeping your place clean?
Haha. Done for it!
Did podcast. Ohmygod laa. They suddenly off by itself. stupid siaaa.
& the boys ate ice kacang without us! >;[

Tuesday:
Eng, I was rushing! I finished at 9.56? 9.57?
Only a few minutes to check. ;x
Wahlaoo. I was like, already stuck at some questions.
My hand burn siaa. Write so much.
Then we all did podcast first. Oh well, 4 minutes plus? Better then ntg. ;D
Then went home, changed. Some Gfs went myy house changed.
haha. Then go to RM.
I bought bubble tea! Then we went to talk about ghost stories.
Me & angel gave it a miss for awhile because we were having fun on the three slides
which are meant for toddlers.
& I like, keep hitting the bloody metal. Laugh laugh. hahah
Then went CP with adila, Fazlin & a bro Aufar. haha!
Sry lah bro! we take a long time at toilet, watson, mini toons.
Girls are girls xD Then go Metro. Bumped into Zhen wei. Haha.
Then 77th street also the same. xD Then home.
Imran introduced me Honey&Clover. ahah. Funny!

Wednesday:
Today was fun. But I wished the school just get on with exams. without any break in between.
Its very tough la. 2 exams, then break. -.-
Oh well. But today's lessons were a breeze.
Maths, well, congruency. Lucky for Wei Qi I survived.
Science, mini pop quuiz. Haiya. Fail. xD
Lang arts was most fun. Watched Waterboys.
Laugh like shit la! Hahah. Even Mr suani laugh! xD
He let us watch coz we too stressed. *claps* yay him!
Art, did some drawing. LCE watching this thai movie.
Very sad la! About a dad and his son who is Retard.
then I cried when the boy said to his dad.
"daddy, nobody loves me. " wahlao. super sad)):
everyone keep making fun of him. Then he so sad go throw rock at the shop window then kene hit by the dad. ):
Then he ran away with this girl, his best friend.
*sob* Imran & syafiq were like looking at me crying. ;x
Thn Imran was like,
"eh. If you like this already cry, ltr H&C how?"
Then he kene pinch by Ms Ng for doing journal.
haha! Then I went to Maths cube while the rest go Podcast.
Then went Podcast. already 9 mins plus.
My group did great la. Can say. xD At least I helped with storyboarding!
Which helped them? Stupid man. Podcast so diff. ):
Then do it during exams period. =.="
But we forget to save the credits and group photo.
sheesh. wasted. ): Then went homeeee. <3

Thats all. I don't wanna get sick siaa. Exams are already here!
Stupid. Tommorow Im going out with mummy&daddy. Lets hope I get the ans by tommorow.
& adila. cheer up! Im here for ya! there are others better out there. Im sure of it. Give time to relax kays?
Many loves<3

It was so hard seeing the pieces over & over♥

Tit tit

2008-04-25T06:57:00.000-07:00

Okay. My last post until exam. ( Maybe xD)
I have not revise yet mind you! Gonna drop. ;c
Today im playing my com until i crazy. haha.
Morning was embarassing, the teacher was like,
"relekk...take your certificate first" Then I was laughing.
Malu okay. oh well, $10 popular voucher. ;D
Malay class was just reading, then suddenly we talk about Habbo. haha.
Lang arts, not much. Maths, spend most of the time at toilet.
Cheer up angel. ): Geog, Got my test back.
ohmyyygosssh. 12/20. ): CARELESS ALOT LAAA. ):
& Stupid chopstick ask me keep Syafiq's paper.
wahlao. He as lazy as he is, he is naturally clever la!
15 and 1/2. sheesh. But like, if today never come, its wasted
coz today must take home all books under desk
I saw his desk. Haiyoo! Home ec book, history, lang arts
Gd luck dude. You'll need a trolley.
Anyways, tommorow is Maths cube. I want to go.
Because I suck in Maths.
haha.

Good luck for your MYE people! ;D
Monday-Mt paper 1
Tuesday-Paper 2 for eng & MT [i think]

You're left with 3 more days to revise. ahaha. fat hope.
Im still slacking. ;/ shh. xD
Thats all.

Or, could it be?♥♥

ogmy.

2008-04-22T07:32:00.000-07:00

this is my 190th post.ten more. ;D
ogmy. today was, eartth day?
ahahs. Save the earth!
sheesh. Lang arts was one bigg shock
2g did better!
our class had only one pass.
and the answers, when flashed, are,
ogmy. its so ... ;x
wthh. i failed. i failed baddd.
6/20! waste of timee!
But the other class test i got 15/25. better. -.-
My standards really drop man.
I was soo dissapointed.
My home ec i got 14. Many careless mistakes.
damm. Next term is DNT, I planned to get another HOD award. eherm. xD
seriously. need to buck up!
I tried to revise, but mostly failed, because I would be sleeping.
Im flunking alottt of tests. How can that be?
I aim to go 3G next year. I cannot take triple science!
sheesh. I am soo not ready for mid-year.
Did I tell you next week is our Mid-year exams?
Flunk. flunk. screwed.
We still hve podcasts! ;x
I must pass all my subjects. at least a B! ):
But at the rate im going, its a C! )):
I need to study. Im worrying about Language arts Compre! ):
Malayyy. ogmyyy. Did I tell you Im soo not good in MT? ^^
Scienceee. ogmyyy! Geogg! Historyy!
Maths! ogmy. Until now, what is direct proportion?!
failureeeee.
Oh and ytd nightmare was, SCARY. ):
I need medication. to sleep.

buck up Hamizah. Buck up.
*kicks everything away*
Hello books. long time no see.
Shairah, take care): We are here for ya.

sheeeeesh. )):

Haiz.

2008-04-20T05:25:00.000-07:00

I seriously had enough of life.
All screwed up like a million puzzles.
Then Im all alone. Haiz.

Just when I thought I had cooled down, suddenly I read it.
I thought I could call you the "S" word back.
But you're keeping a distance? I dont understand.
Forgive me, I had enough of faking it & lying.
Had enough of crying over break-ups and fall outs.
I wanted you to be by my side with the others.
Wanted everything to go normally again.
Its all up to you. Im all ready to hear you.
Keep thinking of our outings and memories,
Have you forgotten? I broke so many promises,
But I was keeping this one.
Was all ready to forgive you, because you mean alot.
But its all up to you. I had enough.

Forget it. Life's a shit.
I feel so miserable I've been having nightmares.
Im serious. Even all my birds gt a shock when I keep waking up suddenly in a shock.
Haizzz. I feel like crying again. ;/

Invinsible

2008-04-18T05:37:00.000-07:00

I think I decided not to beg mama & papa.
Being gone from here is good.
Goodbye my friends.

Im sorry I ever existed,
breaking everybody hearts like nothing.
Im a bitch, I deserve pain and tears
Because something called happiness never appeared in my life before.
If I were invinsible, I would stay like that forever.
I don't wanna see people's tears. I don't mind watching mine.
Im sorry I hurt you. Im sorry I appeared in your life.
Im sorry I made you cry. Im sorry I ever existed.
You've been there for me, You've been there giving me advices,
Going through with me the ups and downs, hearing about my shits,
giving me a listening ear, But I was stupid to never appreciate it.
Life is so hard when people change, because everyone got hurt.
if we were to rewind back time, I would make it so that all this never happen.
That you won't be hurt, That I never went anywhere.
I hate it when people change, But I did.
Because you live, you made me believe in myself you know that?
But its as though distance brought me apart, but i was still confused.
I don't even know what my heart is saying, But i guess I do now ;/
Its hard to forget you because somehow little things you made somehow made me smile,
Its hard to forget you because every part of the school has memories.
Its hard to forget you because you had love me for 7 months.
Its hard to forget you because it was all my fault.
You were the star guiding through in my life,
You were the heart beating for me,
you never gave up on me,
But I never appreciate what all you've done.
you do have a million reasons why you can hate me,
Everybody does, But I deserve it.
I am the cause of misery.
Now when things change, I was a fool.
I made you cry, It never happened in my life before.
It hurts seeing you cry because of my mistakes.
It hurts being confused of my feelings.
It hurts knowing that two hearts are shattering.
It was a tough desicion I was making,
But I decided to follow my heart, Not my mind.
If I did, You would be even more hurt because all of it wasnt true.
Thank you for beiung my angel,
Thank you for being a part of my life,
Thank you so much for the memories.
Thank you so much for the love.
Thank you so much for the care.
Thank you so much for the appreciation.
Thank you for being the air that I breathe,
Thank you for being my fairytale.
Thank you so much for flying around with me on the strings of love,
Picking me up from the other broken pieces, Slowly mending it with me.
The memories you gave were sweet, I appreciate every moment of it.
Thank you for letting me feel the warmth of your hug,
your hand, your love, your care.
I love you, and thats why I was confused.
But It was like waiting for a disaster to happen.
I know you're hurt, & Im guilty that Im the one to blame.
Im on everyone's hated list.
Good luck for your N Levels.
Good luck in your future.
Take care of your knee. Take care of your health.
You can find someone who's better then me,
that will never repeat my mistakes again,
That won't make you hurt anymore,
that won't make you cry anymore.
I will wish you happiness.
Im seriously sorry Bintang Merah,
I seriously am.
But its okay if you cant forgive me.
I understand, I deserve it.
Take care, Thank you so much,
I'm so sorry. ='[
Sincerely, me♥

Haiz. My eyes hurt from crying too much.
I'll concentrate on my studies now.
My heart's really empty now. Full of dusts and plasters.
No One will ever enter it again, I locked it.
Its all my fault. Haiz.
Life don't suck. I do.
One month+ away.
People will be more happier.
Goodbye people. Goodbye s'pore.

Thank you 080907. Thank you Bintang Merah♥

Its all over now♥

Goodbye?

2008-04-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

Im going to talk to papa & mama hard
One month is dying. ):
I'll beg with them if I can.
Because today they seem to be in a good mood.

Haiz. Anyways, I stopped at Monday did I?
Monday:
Class skit was disaster.
Faz never come, I alone.
Sungei buloh mosquitoes, saw a chicken! ;D
Tuesday:
The cookie was okayy. But could have done better. sheesh.
Geog test, me, liyen, fazlin, yu xiang did a four people high-five because we were all ready to fail.
Wednesday:
Maths test, Syafiq & imran nvr come, so we sit infront of Mansor.
Hhaa. We were noisy. Keep sighing, making noise. xDD
Ms ng gave us rocky road!
She baked!
Super deliciousss. But I was naseous because it was sooo chocolateyy.
Me, Mansor & Fazlin got extra coz we helped clean the class.
Haha. Good dogs. ;P
Then I got an electric shock? Until I shivering.
sheesh. =.=
Today:
We changed classrooms.
But better for Wei Qi who sprained her knee.
The doctor also told her the same thing.
Drink milk.
Haha. Then the class skit rehearsal. =.=
Then go IC. Ok..I soo love the Leopard version.
Tiger, you suck. xD go upgrade!
And the teacher is from L.I.D! Hhaha.
Malay listening postpone thanks to Lisa.
yay!

Nah. sorry sakina coz we eat your cookie.
I go bake somemore lor.
Karen & Li yen, cheer up.
Ashikin & adila too.
& Fazlin, that was shocking! xD

OK dah. I might as well cry myself to sleep.
I hate you life. I hate today. I hate people. I hate myself.
I drew things in the notebook. (:
Z has made his way to the top! Overthrowing S to the ground.
haha(:

Screwed up world♥

2008-04-15T05:07:00.000-07:00

Well hello.

We'll post about Monday:

I went sungei buloh.

Mosquitoes. Class skit disaster. K done.

Today:

I so failed my geog test;D

Was super stress.

Yu xiang, Liyen, Me & Fazlin were like screaming around because our answers were wrong.

Then did a four people high-five.

I love them(:

Then Home ec, Okay lah, But could have done better):

Nvm, Mrs lim said it was good(: *cheers*

Finally over!

Tommorow have a freaking Maths test. Sure to flunk(:

Art, Haiya.

MYE= Like, only a few more days?

Listening compre- this thrusday

Go go! I can do it!

Today stay back learn maths. Sakina laugh laugh.

Currently Im crying♥

They do look cute together. You can stop hiding now.

I don't know whats happening to my heart.

Neither is my life.

Im just going to go through it.

I just gotta.

With the help of God and GFs.

Because I can only believe in them now.

*takes out plaster* Ready to tape it all back)':

It was like staring at an empty screen♥

Sheesh sheep.

2008-04-13T07:09:00.000-07:00

Today mamaa brought me out.
Guess what. My parents have planned out my rest of the year behind my back.
Guess they want me to get out of the house faster.
Next month, Im going overseas.
End of the year, Im going overseas also.
Next year also same.
Best ah. I was like super sad when Mama told me this because I feel like a discarded anak.
But I was happy that I get to go. (:
I bought ingredients for tuesday's pratical test.
Pray for me.
Haiz. Reading "things" arent making me better.
I mean, Bad things. Memories.
But you know, as long as others are happy, I'll be willing to sacrifice mine's.

Leaving so soon?

2008-04-12T05:47:00.000-07:00

Since I'm so long outdated of the days, you can see Sakina's blog to see what's happening the past week.
Today is Sports Day. Ok, sports Carnival.
We walk here and there. So bored, we did Line Dancing.
Well, better then nothing.
Then go see cheerleading! Pegasus won! Take that man!
Hafiy is migrating, Danial is moving. ):
Next year, like, alot of people not here anymoree.
Can both of you please pretty please not go?)):
Then I realised something.
Next year, Brother will be in NS, Sister is going Uni.
I'll be left alone. this time, more alone then ever.
wow. Great.
Haiz. I'll miss alot alot of people.
*sobs* & did I mention that Exams are round the corner?
I just have to make a right turn, poof. Hello exams! Been waiting?
I have not been paying attention during maths. Depending alot on the textbook to teach me. ):
The class skit is well, umm. okay-ing,
It may not be that good for the lower sec, but maybe we'll do it better for Upper sec(:
Sos! Sos! I SERIOUSLY need to pay attention on classes more often. But Im sleepy!
sheesh. Gonna D-I-E. Next week, My group is SOO GONNA start on Podcast.
Im like so sad nowadays. I keep crying.
I miss 2007. Can we just rewind time and go back? Please. Pretty please with cherry on top?
Haiz. I wish things would be cleared faster and we can just get on with it.
2008-The worst year
why?
-Ic things. ~~Newsletter~~Podcast, Earth Day
-People change ):
-We are all too busy, the only times we meet are, after school & recess? But after school also, CCA and Podcast takes our time. Recess very short okay! ):
-This year is like a bad year lah. Its only starting, we are already stressed up up!
We couldnt even have time to join anything. ):

Miserable. =.="
& I found a new lover! Syaza!<3>
& tommorow is Death Note 2! ahaha. Yes im slow. =.= Harap harap sz online.
Done for the day(:

Gfs, Thanks alot for comforting me just now(:

Life(:

2008-04-11T08:07:00.000-07:00

Life is very busy nowadays.

Exams in like, 18 more days?

as you can see, I changed blogskin thanks to ashikin.

Will post soon(:

Enjoy, the blog's still under construction.

All the best.

Friends.

2008-04-06T05:33:00.000-07:00

Haiz. Happy Birthday to Kak Lin.
Happy one week to my diarhoea.
Happy 7th months of singleness from MOCHI. [tk mao teraser eh org tu=.=]

Okay maybe number 2 & 3 its not happy.

I was like browsing through my Egdefield diary.
I wrote that I didnt aimed for this school.
But sheesh. I got in.
Then I looked on how badly I failed my Maths, had the maths supplementary.
I also took down the New South Whales Competition I took part.
I remembered my friends. I remembered the SYF they went.
I missed Recess time where we played Catching everyday.
Every Wednesday, We tried our best to miss out the weekly morning run.
The airconditioned Malay class. The Cafe.
All these things I miss.
Then came PSLE. Then came out results.
It all went in a Flash.

Then made our way to secondary school.
I remembered the games. The fun teachers.
The not homeroom system.
Walking around. Then suddenly bonding camp.
The fun is overwhelming.
Then we all went through alot of ups and downs.
Then its as though we cnnt re-do our actions nor turn back.
As we grow older, we grow apart.
We lost the things to say to each other. Its as though you have a million ramblings in your mind but the words are lost once we meet face to face.
Sometimes the things that we say, The otehr party just don't understand or know.
Then if we rake up the past, it will somehow lead to bad memories or its liek as though

"come on. we've talked about this a gazillion times"
Even Tv shows cant save you from the communication silence.
Then we found new friends, and old friends we leave.
But we all change. Then its as though we all are different people.
Our communication gets different, the actions too.
Even the way we think.
One word could lead to a disaster, and another pops up.
But this is life. Nobody's perfect. Nobody's know whats on the other mind.
But we have to believe, that Friends are people, who will be by your side.

And one things for sure. I treasure all my friends.

Am I writing rubbish? Haiz. Deppr.
Ready to fail napha. ;D
yay!

Sick

2008-04-02T20:48:00.000-07:00

Oh well, I was absent on Tuesday & thrusday.
But I still feel like shit/ Guess the medicine didnt help much?
Sheesh. I think i'll not post on speech day. One word, okay three!: Fun And Memorable(:
OKay Monday:
haiya. stomach pain. Me and Faz felt sick, but oh well, we couldnt have the energy to run heer and there to sign the forms to go home home.

[OH DAMM. I PASSED MY MEDICINE TIME! *rushes* brb]

Oh well...

Tuesday:
I didnt came, neither did faz.
SO FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY 13 YEARS AND 3 MONTHS OF MY LIFE,
DAD LET ME RIDE HIS MOTORCYCLE.
I was supposed to ride it when I was 10, but oh well.
It was scaryy! But I prefer riding a motorcycle then a bicycle.
But oh well, Im more of a car person! ;x Daddy was going too fast man, i mean for me. xD

But got scolded by him. Haiz. He told me wait outside, I didnt see anyone., so i went to his motor, but no one, then went up again, then he downstairs screaming my name. ;[[[
Haiyo! People sick leh! ):
The doctor was well, crap. He was most of the time correcting my english. =.="
This is not an english lesson! >;o
Then I ddint had enough energy.

Wednesday:
I was sick but dragged myself to school.
I miss gfs alot alot okay! Its like torture being alone with your stuff toys ):
Adila cut her hair! Super chio! ;D
Then school per normal ah. But I was very weak so I slept alott. xD
Maths, well at toilet. Art & LCE, SLEEP. haha. Thankyouveryverymuch Ms ng!<3
Oh did I mention that 2I & 2H were embarassed during recess? Because we took the longest time to sit down. =.="
After school, well..
Umm..I went com lab with Ashikin, sakina & adila. We go open the lead portal Blogs.
Oh yes. Then talked talked. and home we goo.
Mummy came back around 11+. She told me not to go school on thrusday.
phew.

Today:
Got a sad call at 2am. Haiz. Inalilahziwainahlillahirahjiun? Haizzzzz.
oh yes. I so havent eat lunch, nor eaten my medicine.
Im dead. & i miss gfs alot ):
Mind you! IM still sick! But well, today I missed out my MT test. *jumps*
BUt tommorow I'll still have to take it.
Sheesh! I still have blogging about ecotourism? Then Naphaa 2.4 next wednesday. Im soooo not prepared okay! die die.
Ok thats all(:
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee<3

meep

2008-03-29T09:01:00.000-07:00

will post about speech dsay soon
I have mild diarrhoea, adding a toot to my fever. =.=
gosh. in pain*

EFFUNN STRESS OKAY

2008-03-24T07:17:00.000-07:00

STRESS LIKE OHMYMOTHERISNOTHOME!
uhuh uhuh. wahlao.
Guess what? we only did one page(: *claps* yay! ;D
Tommorow fazlin ALONE go semakau leh! see hw bad my group is! ;o
Im so pack this week!
By 5pm friday, must hand up in lead portal leh! ):
Monday: Rehearsal
Tuesday: ok fine, I go do the newsletter a little.
Wednesday: Rehearsal!
Thrusday: last day. doing all at once. no lunch! >;o
Friday: speech day!
mmhhmmm mhhmmm.
seee! I'm not super woman!
Today got scolded in lang arts for sleeping. =.=" Pfft.
Haiya. wtv la. Then uh, I was so so sleepy. Malay I slack ;D
Then went drama. was late for 5 mins. then need do 50 push ups leh )))):
But in the end never. phewww. NEVER GONNA COME LATE AGAIN!
Then Mr G was pissed off with the things we broke ):
Then one by one apologise/promise
wahlao. I nervous man! Then My turn, after I say, suddenly Bel was like, "you nid go toilet?"
and I was like looking around thought she talking to me. Blur siak! Because my standing posture look like I holding my tootototot. xD hahaha.
But Mr G said good comments ;D yay mee! Im gonna make him proud!
Cehh. hahaha. ;BBBB I wanna act in SYF. Jia you! xD
Today I no mood. Haiz.
& my toilet light spoil. i use torchlight lehhs. But I smell so Protex-ish ;D
haha. Ok done(:

{Imsad. Can't you do anything?}

hohihe

2008-03-23T08:02:00.000-07:00

tsk

I have this fucking homework

3 journal entry, friedrich paper, 5 chapters of Malay to be completed, Science essay, History journal, art, maths.

In blue are those I have not finish! Red are those I have. Green are needed to pass up tommorow but still havent do. why?

Coz I lost my freaaakinggg paperrr. dammit. *rummages bag* PFFT! IM DEAD OKAY!

ah poof. My brain blasts off! ;x

Im still sad. *bites bites*

haiz. Can I pretty please not go school tommorow?

Im tired. This week is a lot of rehearsals! ;c

*bites bites* I gotta stop thsi habit. Making bruises.

Today I tried DUCK! eee. Nice only when eat with the sauce!

Not nice lah! I'll stick with chicky xD

ah gosh. I'll just write my History Essay anyhow ah. THen tommorow pass up.

Tommorow I go do Maths and science If I dun tire too much. But would end up sleeping luhhs.

& just got call from Cik Halim. *panics* DON'T TELL ME HE'S COMING!

*pants* Tommorow my bag is heavy. Can anyone help me carry?

And ohmygosh. I havent buy ingrediets for Home ec.

see! This week is super macnificiently miserable. =.=

Hope I can survive. I wil pray pray hard to God!

*prays* Haiz. Life still sucks. I know. Byeee.

{Its hard, I don't see any point anyhow. ♥}

): RIP baby

2008-03-22T06:57:00.000-07:00

ytd was fun fun!
I went out with lisaaa,adilaaa,ashikinnn<3
haha. meet up with adila first, then went to ride 43.
She sleep on my shoulder while I ss. Then when I wanted to sleep, she woke em up one minute later coz already reach. haha
Then went to eat at banquet! ;D I lent my darls money, coz i cnnt expect them to be staring at me & lisa eating!

I ate this! Yummy right? Satisfiying sia! Then Lisaa ate bee hoon? Adila nasi ayam, ashikin ansi with lauk.

Then walked around, then I dropped ice cream on adila's cam! HENG NOT THE LENS! PHEWW
Laughed alot taht day. Then decided to walk to Eats coast,
But we were tired and it was a far way! xD so stopped at this playground. Had fun like ohmygosh;D

Ashikin angry coz Hamizah dun wanna give her play horsey! ;D

RUN! RUN! I panic siaaaa!

Ugly ;D

I had the best best day with these people that I love ALOTALOTALOT. Will post more pichas soon(:

anyways today both teh baby bird died. At my hands. I felt their last breath. Couldnt help btu cry. Coz teh food entered the lungs instead of mouth, coz stil baby, digestive not good. ):
Haiz. Daddy's angry.
So I hurt myself on ym own will. Cry also no use. Pain better):
Haiz. ok byeeee.

Oh wow

2008-03-19T08:40:00.000-07:00

its going to 12 but im still not sleeping.

why? Because nowadays there's too many homework that no choice.

Today spotcheck. =.=" clipped up fringe. haha.

Then I find the rest of the lessons boring.

I didnt pay attention. I couldnt care ;D

And me & faz we're the two girls who DIDNT pass up maths ;D haha. Bye 1 mark!

hahaha. then SS alot during lang arts, Jon tore my book. =.=" Stupid noobshit.

Then art I read magazines, LCE didnt do much. yay!

Rain rain. boo. and i bought two combs in two days. great(:

Im sad nowadays, & i broke my nail. [-.-]

I have 6 journal entries that need to pass up by this week.

& Faz splashed me today.

But overall, Im sad.

Rehearsal okay bahs. haha. Thats all.

I still hate home & life. Nobody cares, neither do I(:

Baobei Zizi, Ily(: hoho<3

peepformoney:X

2008-03-17T07:04:00.000-07:00

Life suxs.

so many homework.

projects are killing me, one ; two ; three

My hair is insulted like my pantat.

Bang bang bang, the gun shoots me with hard pieces of homework, slumped on the table

all stacked up waiting to be written.

oh man. It doesnt help with Family scolding, CCA practice.

Coz they both make me super tired, that I cnnt do my homework, and end up sleeping.

God, Be kind to us, pleaseee.

ah. God, save me from all this, let me go through all this things & settle some things calmly before I can move on.

A gun shot through my head would be great(:

I seriously hate it when you do that.

2008-03-16T06:55:00.000-07:00

boo. i hate my life.

I hate my home.

I hate being in there. ):

Haiz

Today was fun(:

Im so sry to the Dancers, coz I couldnt attend. ): But you did your best! Three cheers for all of you!

Then yes, I keep cutting my fringe, until TWO SPECIAL people came and helped.

hahaha. and now, im so scared. Because my face is ugly.

Nvm, pin up ah! ;D

went home. was abit tired so I had a nap

& I didnt noe she must do that just to wake me up

FOR GOODNESS SAKE

IM ALREADY AWAKE WHEN PAPA CALLED MY NAMEEEE.

*SHOWS EYES* SEE! IM AWAKE!

NO NID DO LIKE THAT LA! ITS PAINFUL! ):

I cried. alott. I didnt even had appetite for dinner, or tv.

GRRR

TODAY ISNT A GOOD DAY WITH FAMILY.

First at Religious class, cousin scolded me for idk what fuck.

Next, this?

Idk. Life is zywvutdcba!

The train was dancing<3

2008-03-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

Its oh so fun! ;D

Ok today:

woke up, bathe, blaaa.

Then followed Mum. She go take out money ;o

Then i go top-up

Then I was walking to 7-Eleven

I saw Faz, Hakim, Syakur & vanessa

haha. Then blaa. Go Plaza Sing.

wanted to catch the 2.10 show but we went ahead the time, so had to catch the 4.30 one. well, good enough!

So went LJS, ate. haha. I was left alone for awhile while adila & ashikin go toilet

Ss siaaa.

Then walked around around

went to the Arcade

wasted money. =.="

Then quickly go inside cinema

The movie was super super niceee

we very kecoh la! Haha. adila put her leg ontop of me, then suddenly ashikin scared her.

haha. Woo. Then went out, waited for Faz, then go Cp togetherr

Faz & ashikin go off first ): boo.

Then Me & adila walk walk, bougth ice cream, sit at Mcdonald

hoho. Messy sia! Note: NEVER EVER BUY CHOCOcone AGAIN>;O

Then go toilet, and home.

Today is the most most bestest fun day I ever had.

Hahahahahah!

I'm happy because it can stop me for being sad. Only if forawhile

But once back home, I feel all, sad again.

Haiz. Thats all. byeeee<3

I fell in your trap of love by looking at your eyes♥

It wasnt going to be like it was Before<3

2008-03-12T09:26:00.000-07:00

I hate my home. ):

Aint peaceful.

I hate it when mum has bad moods at the wrong time.

Because Im ALWAYS the victim.

This juts makes my misery worse.

No use crying, But I cant help it.

I hate hate hate hate Life.

Currently: Depressed, listening to sad songs. So I can cry myself to sleep.

No one cares anymore.

Trampling Hearts

2008-03-11T07:15:00.000-07:00

so i stopped at Friday?

haha

Sat:

Nth much, went out with mum.

And I missed the chance to ride the Singapore Flyer.

So my brother took my place.

dammiiittttt. x.x

Sun: No religious class(:

Mon:

CCA. Very fun. Reached 100%

The band was like slackish.

I was busy playing City Blocks. hahaha.

I love that day alott.

Then Rachel pei me go buy bubble tea.

Then I must wait for 119 with her.

Thank you so much darl<3

hahha. Then thats all

Today:

Rain rain rain.

Haiz. My mood was super super down la.

So at abt 4, went down,

Buy things for mum. Then I walked alone.

Idk la. Im like so weird.

I talk to myself.

Been crying nowadays.

I begin to hate life again when I thought I saw the light.

I miss being myself, and seeing others being themselves

But as we grow older, Things just change.

Its so tough, but lets be truthful.

Life oh life.

Please, just let me be happy

I pray to god, Let my life be what I want it to be.

And I still will.

Im still finding those smiles that went on vacation

Come back, please?

Haiz. see. Im so not okay.

Tommorow going skool. =.="

IM BACK

2008-03-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

hahaha. Ohmygosh. I keep SSing nowadays, until I finally realise,

I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING FOR ONE WEEK NOW ;O

Come. Scream, then stop, drop & roll.

whoosh. Im high. Maybe because of the recent addiction for Kimchi. haha ate one just now ;x

ok. best. wednesday okay?

1st day:

poosh. Woke up early, Karen<3>

Then blaa. talk here, talk there.

Then go the tuas. we waited so long for our Msia couch while the rest rode theirs =.=

Then slept all the way to KL. whoosh. Lunch at dim sum.

yummy chicken soup! Then PETROSAINS;DD

AHHAHA. I HAD SUPER SUPER FUN;D

But I lost my camera, then Mr kheng found it. PHEW.

Then blaa. Went Firefly park.

niceee. But scary. got crocs. hahha not the shoe la!

eew. then went hotel. slept.

2nd day:

woke up kindda late. THE FRIED RICE IS YUMMYYY.

oh, then went FRIM. didnt enjoy. very very itchy.

Mosquitoes and butterflies ):

the lunch was nicee! But only 15-20 mins of shopping, we rushed through lunch.

didnt buy anything that interest me, except a cookie. ahhaha

Then the park is okay lahh. saw monkeys from the bus.

haha. Then blaaa. oh yeah

Syafiq came with this prank, so we rode the stairs, thought want ride lift.

Run here & there. spent 15 mins finally gave up. so yeah

sweat like crazy then went hotel room

finally the boiler could work! Then watched MTV and slept.

3rd day:

again, but this time woke up early.

yeahh. very sad ah. packed, breakfast, then blaaaa

the shopping place suxss. =.=

Then went home at night with darls.

k done.

hahhaa

my fingers are lazy pigs!

OINKKK

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE<3>

Goodbye(:

2008-03-04T05:00:00.000-08:00

Today Im reallly down.

school was boring for idk what reason.

Home ec, jie hao & hong wei make me & amanda laugh badly.

Something about Barbie wallpapers. hahah.

So im so not ready forIC trip. ):

Haiyaaaa. tommorow must wake up at 4am! go school by 5am!

all due to the police lor. *yawn*

After school go search for suaini. So he left his laptop alone with me & faz.

hahaha. watched until finish. SUPER SAD LAAAA. ))):

Then Faz went first, so me & syakur go see the part again ):

Then he help me carry the HEAVY laptop. hahaha. Thn dunno why Mr suaini smiling smiling at me when I give back. lol. x.x

Then went homeeee. Then thought wanted to have my last kimchi ramen, but i slept.

waaaaaaaaa.): Baby Kimchi, Mummy gonna miss ya loads.

so bored. I cannot sleep. Gotta finish packing, then sleep.

Gonna miss:

-Computer

-Baby RB & G

-SS,PT,GG

-yuma<3

-org. xD hehhe. paham paham:D

-my bed? hehehe.

so gonna come back at friday at night. byeeeeeeeeee<3>

):

2008-03-02T05:40:00.000-08:00

http://www.esnips.com/doc/1c6c0abf-412a-469c-8041-80a7150fac76/ramzi-ft-ash-king---your-love-is-blind-[www-rap4ever-net]

aiya, kindda okay song. got arab words ah? read the lyrics(:

Today very boring ah. as usual, I nvr pay attention to teacher.

Then went home, then blaaaa.

I'm halfway packing! :D will be finished at tuesday, since Im a lazy pig!

hahah.

Im like so excited, but scared? xD & not to mention sad luh.

So yeah, I still havent made notes for the chinese people.

tommorow "no" MT! :D yay! But monday is so suckish! ):

Its the worst day. Very heavy bags. & tommorow got PE assesment. ah damm.

PE then CCA. so tiring! ): Tuesday home ec and GEOG(:

Wed, off to IC trip. Its like so fast man!

*yawn* this week, only thing to look forward to?

Sleeping at Concord(: ok byeee<3

die(:

2008-02-29T06:44:00.000-08:00

Oh damm. Today I overslept.

hahaha. let me blog about the whole week(:

Monday:

aiyaa. assembly blaa.

Tuesday:

hmm. anorexia?

Wednesday:

ah hello. I got 66 for art.

LOWEST among gfs. yay. =.=

God, I was so sleepy.

Thrusday:

hmm. I slept, did newsletter

Friday:

ah poof. Sec2 gt briefing again.

damm. i WOKE UP AT 6.30 TODAY!

AAHH! rushed like bullshit. Nvr packed bag :D

phew. Then blaa. Gawd, Im so sleepy, I wrote rubbish at my Karangan,

Then SLEPT. YAY! ;D

hahah. Imran woke me up, & wanna noe how?

He pushed my table until I jerked awake. asshole! xD

Lng arts, looked forward to the movie, very sad.

Maths, aiya, I nvr pay attention.

Geog, yay. fun(:

hahah.

Then today go buy some suffs for trip

Nex week going KL.

Haiz. Thsi year, its like so stressful

Haiz. Its like I keep sleeping late due to homework, then will wake up late.

Keep sleeping in classes or after school. and I keep yawning! ;o

Teachers are really stressing us about the IC trip! ):

Life is so tough. Come on! 2 & 1/2 more years.

then GOODBYE(:

hahaha. So yeah, I havent even pack for trip. wow.

hahaha. Im still sad. Today cried with ashikin & sakina. haiz.

Our life's all very sad. I envy people with smiles.

Even if I did, its no use, I cant even stop my sad emotions from overflowing.

oh, I foudn out about Raven. grr. I don't think a good neighbour award can ever go to you.

I hope Raven die soon. So you wont have fun playign with her. she's ours.

ok so idk if I want to burst out crying, or screaming.

Both ah. <3

It was like wrapping my heart in a bandage♥

Newsletter(:

2008-02-28T04:31:00.000-08:00

Today, hmm. still quite sad.

Haha. Lang arts syiok. Watched the movie.

Then when reached the kissing part, suddenly suaini closed his latop.

hahah. Then blaaaa<3

After school, went to finish up my newsletter since I nvr came.

ahahah. god, I took like 2 hours just to finish 2 paragraphs

thanks to the boys! xD hahah! & not only that

when we snapped each other, their hands are so bigg! ;o

hahahah. Then slept at Canteen. xD woops.

Then darls went out, then went home. I was so sleepy.

Today I am more sad. Lets see, Raven & BB are gone

They flew away. Haiz. One neighbour caught Raven, but like, idk what happen?

Haiz. COME BACK BB )):

BB's the white one. Please? anyone saw him?

The blue is Cake syg. Haiz. ):

Yellow is Sunshine.

Please come back sygs. ):

Haiz. Nobody can feel the pain I feel inside,

It gets stronger everyday, so strong that even tears can't hide the fact.

Bye<3

Can I really snap out of it?

Why?

2008-02-26T05:00:00.000-08:00

Haiz.

Life is still getting worser.

I think all of you would be tired of reading that every post has "My life is screwed up"

Haha. Well live with it k? xD

Today not much. Watched vid for lang arts

Then for home ec, I received one more mark.

phew. So I got 24 & 1/2. X.x

Ohmygod Hamizah, you soo gotta brace yourself.

Its the worst mark! ): ahh! I aim for 27?

Then we watch about Anorexia?

I said they were pretty, and imran scolded me. x.X

hohoho. Ok lah, They are NOT pretty!

I mean the tummy is flat, but the rib cage showing out? eew!

Then yeah, Geog was fun(:

WE had to do a song about rain?

Chosed twinkle twinkle little star. haha.

But the prize is, 1m for the whole group. Which means, 2% in your ca! :D

Mum just asked about my HP. haiya! I havent got it back, understand? )):

Haiz. I feel like a puppet sia. Only I can cry myself to sleep(:

Tommorow, speech exam. last lesson.

AHH. I HAVENT PREPARE. Good luck Hamizah, You'll fail(:

haiz. ok bye. ♥

Lets wish on a star(:

2008-02-25T05:59:00.000-08:00

Haiz.

Im still sad.

Today not much laugh. Sadness was in the air.

What to do? My life has already been screwed up(:

And its not easy going back.

So today nt much. Suani sported a new hairdo. =.=

Then went Inceniration plant.

ok like phew. Heng nvr go Pulau Semakau. even if its a ferry ride. ;x

Coz like, if this place already worse, that place could be worser! :o

Ok first only a few people from TWO classes went up to occupy one bus

2I occupy behind ah(:

Angel sat beside me. Thank god. Then had a super long journey.

Then blaa. Watched video and went for tour.

WE SAW A DEAD RAT OKAY. And the rubbish was scary.

Imagine if you fell down! The chimnney, 51m high. fuhh.

OH GOD. My nose was so pitiful. The smell...But not all parts ah. sadly, Its closing down next year. awwww. Its only like 30 years old?!

oh. Then I suddenly rmbred about today's assembly

Their love story sad sey.

"In 10 years, when I come back. When I offer you an ice ball, would you accept it?"

wow. Imagine in 10 years time, I'll be 24?

Hmm. wow. Haha. Future seems exciting

But for now, I'll be keeping quiet.

My life's still unstable.

So Im still all alone at home due to ___ Oh you dont need to know.

Haiz. Todays tiring. & sad.

Life oh life. Why make me drop in this hole?

Life: Because you deserve it fool.

Me: Oh.

Haiz. will blog more next time. When Life feel much better?

Byee<3

Fairytales dont' show the truth♥

Pics

2008-02-24T00:42:00.000-08:00

Oh! I spent one HOUR doing a mass picture. Its found at my friendster!

But like alot of people faces arent inside. Gotta do it again!

Those who are not inside, im so sorry): But I still love all of you(:

Here's the pic(: so many Memories. Cheerleading, silent lullaby & more(:

Those whose faces not inside, seriously FORGIVE ME

Adila ask me put my pic. Nah. Its the ugliest and current one I can find. haha

Bye<3

What to do with powerpoint? helpp/

Tired

2008-02-24T00:27:00.000-08:00

Today wasnt really a good day):
Religious class was okay. Only as usual, wasnt paying attention

I was laughing badly when Nini told me about the running boy. haha.

So went home. Suppose to take MRT but cik aziz wanted to send us 4 home.

Quite squeezy. x.x and he played the CD crazy frog. Idk If I wanted to laugh or scream.

I rather ride Cik joe's car go to the mosque and attend the funeral! ):

Haiz. Cant complain ah. Coz Its a FREE ride home.

Today was tiring and sad. Haiz.

Stop pushing all ur troubles to me): I suffered enoughh.

Oh, tommorow going inceneration plant? x.x

Haiz. AH PFFT! Must do powerpoint for malay?

Haiz. Im like so freaking sad. will find another day to blog all about this week.

Byee<3

Im a fool ):

2008-02-20T04:52:00.000-08:00

Today I almost died of stomach cramps. thanks.

Life hasnt been on my side.

Nightmare has been chasing me all over again.

Tears has been flowing non-stop.

Its as though its happenning all over again.

I feel like standing at the tallest building on Earth,

Find myself at the verge of life,

Hear death whispering in my ear.

& I'll end it all there.♥

Life is already screwed up.
That broken soul behind those smiles.
That ugly face between the mirror.
Thanks life. Because I can no longer hear my heart beating.
I see people so happy, I couldnt help being sad.
Its as though life was so perfect, but not on me.

Jst now read sis blog. Haiz. please cheer up sis.
He doesnt leave you lah. I know & i swear.♥
Deep inside, He knows your his sister, & he loves you.
Don't try & disagree because I know. You just needa talk to him.
anyway today speech lessons was okay, more fun. But next week exam.
damm speech.
Seriously Have no mood today and for the rest of the days.
Because I feel like a fool. The smiles have gone on vacation(:
I feel useless. Like a puppet moving around just for the sake of living.
I don't see truths anymore. I see those lies. I see those hatred.
I see those red lines. Those tears, those screams.
God, please help me. Im seriously out of my mind. ♥
I can't continue like this anymore.
So I find myself falling, and falling.
Goodbye.
It just seems so hard. Its as though what they said was true.
When It all withers up, the love goes like that? )):
Let me hear those heart beating.

Because seeing you walkaway makes me cry even more.

Its killing me♥